In times of trust, we cannot change

[sundayxcancer]

I went to TLR last night, a band opened up for the DJ's.... They sucked...... ehhhh The lead singer hit himself in the head with the microphone... which highlighted my day :) But I spent my time with Theresa, Cliff and Carri.... I took Carri to E-Z mart to get herself a cheese weiner, paid for theresa and myself to get into the Club, and then we walked to Pe-King's China and ate there... We came back and hung out In Carri's room, and in the Store, poor Carri she was really sick, I tried not to say anything that might get her rhiled up.... I hope she feels better. We all took pictures together, and they all turned out pretty.. especially Theresa and Cliff... I'm so jealous... they're so pretty... : sigh : After about ten minutes of hanging out in the store, i started to get quiet, I was kind of jealous, I mean i'll admit this, I don't get jealous much, but when people flirt with my friend's I do, it's kind of one of those things like 'Hmm maybe if I was skinny and blond....' But I got over it... We stayed around and I took promos of Cliff and Theresa on Cliff's awesome car... They came out really good... which also left me wondering 'why can't I do things like this?' I had to snap out of it.. i'm the photographer, not the pretty face.... I'll have to live with this.... Anyways, we left and took theresa home, I went into my room, locked the door, and turned on my cd player.... I had my Rasputina cd in, which always puts me in a good mood, since they're my favorite band... I layed my head down, and closed my eyes, but i couldn't fall asleep, I kept dwelling on things that happened just a few hours before.... and then my thoughts switched to relationships... I hope I can find someone who won't fuck with my head as much as the last one did... i want a pretty boy though.. But that would take alot of work to make me look like pretty-boy-grabber material... I just need attention, I am an Attention whore.....

-- Kayla

You destroy my life... and smile as you kiss my hand, and let me fall from the mountain, into the abyss of your black heart.