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today's group of presentations for comms was wayy too emo but it really made me think more about life matters.
varennsa shared a true story about a personal friend who just passed away. i was really so amazed that she could stand there before the whole class and still remain calm and collected. I sat there in my chair and as she told her story i could not help but feel so so sad. it reminded me of esther. esther who passed away a few years back. i remembered when ryan called me out of the blue .. and told me he was at the ICU it caught me totally unexpected. after he hung up.. i just couldn't make out what I was feeling. Well yea I may appear to be more of the sensitive/sentimental/emotional side but when it comes to deaths or departure I tend to be more numb and I don't shed tears. but esther's case was different. like varennsa i was feeling soo soo terrible for not appreciating her when she was alive. for not having made the effort. and really, its not till our loved ones leave us do we regret our actions.
So i just want to tell all of you out there my friends that though i may not show it i really really treasure every single one of you.
yes i know i suck i don't make time for everyone but honestly I really really do care and love all of you.
And really, don't ever hesitate to show your love/affection/concern for the people around you. when your friend is sad go buy her some sweets .. write her a card .. or like if you see some random thing like a pretty cookie or whatever just buy it for your friend.. it doesn't have to be some special occassion! yea it sounds cheesy and all but really i think its the small little things that we do that can make the whole difference. you may say pleaseeeee this is so not my kind of thing.. i'm the unfeeling sort .. but really when your loved one leaves you.. are you gonna say the same thing?
okay sorry i'm rattling off.
but anyways thank you to those friends who have done small littlethings for me .. it really means the world to me. :)
okay good night world
varennsa shared a true story about a personal friend who just passed away. i was really so amazed that she could stand there before the whole class and still remain calm and collected. I sat there in my chair and as she told her story i could not help but feel so so sad. it reminded me of esther. esther who passed away a few years back. i remembered when ryan called me out of the blue .. and told me he was at the ICU it caught me totally unexpected. after he hung up.. i just couldn't make out what I was feeling. Well yea I may appear to be more of the sensitive/sentimental/emotional side but when it comes to deaths or departure I tend to be more numb and I don't shed tears. but esther's case was different. like varennsa i was feeling soo soo terrible for not appreciating her when she was alive. for not having made the effort. and really, its not till our loved ones leave us do we regret our actions.
So i just want to tell all of you out there my friends that though i may not show it i really really treasure every single one of you.
yes i know i suck i don't make time for everyone but honestly I really really do care and love all of you.
And really, don't ever hesitate to show your love/affection/concern for the people around you. when your friend is sad go buy her some sweets .. write her a card .. or like if you see some random thing like a pretty cookie or whatever just buy it for your friend.. it doesn't have to be some special occassion! yea it sounds cheesy and all but really i think its the small little things that we do that can make the whole difference. you may say pleaseeeee this is so not my kind of thing.. i'm the unfeeling sort .. but really when your loved one leaves you.. are you gonna say the same thing?
okay sorry i'm rattling off.
but anyways thank you to those friends who have done small littlethings for me .. it really means the world to me. :)
okay good night world