Original: Shane (Slash)
Shaun didn’t know he was gay until he fell in love with a girl
Shaun had friends, and these friends had friends. These friends of friends wanted to go to the mall, and Shaun’s friends wanted him to come along. So it happened that Shaun was stuck at the mall while girls giggled over clothing and guys tried to impress them by doing stupid stunts. Like running up the down escalator. Shaun watched his friend Michael biff it and slide down the steps, taking a few of the other guys down with him. Laughing, Shaun shifted his position from where he was leaning against the wall, to leaning against a different spot. Someone else giggled to the side of him. Shaun looked over. One of the girls that had come along was also watching the spectacle. She laughed outright when security discovered what was going on and started yelling at them. Shaun just stared at her.
He didn’t think many people were pretty, and if he were honest with himself he wouldn’t describe her as beautiful. There was something about her though. Her smiles were quick and easy, her eyes scrunching up as she laughed; enough so he wondered if she could actually see. Her posture was confident, but when she noticed Shaun looking at her she became self-conscious. Nervously she brushed some of her chin-length brown hair behind an ear. She was tall, though shorter than Shaun.
“Hey.” Shaun said.
“Hey.” She replied.
Shaun tilted his head towards the spectacle. Michael was shrinking away from the security man. “I’m with stupid. Name’s Shaun.”
The girl smiled at him, “I came with one of my girl friends.” She gestured to someone in the pink jewelry store. “I’m Kasey.” Kasey held out her hand to shake and Shaun grasped it.
“Shaun.”
Kasey laughed, “you said that already.” Somebody called her name and she glanced over. She smiled at Shaun, “I’m being paged, it was nice meeting you.” Shaun nodded and watched her go.
“Hey man.” Michael came up to Shaun, “I’m being kicked out of the mall, do you still need a ride?”
“Yeah…” Shaun was a little less glad to leave than he would have been a few minutes ago.
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He had never liked anymore. His first brush with a crush left his head reeling. Shaun was having fun, being love-struck. Michael got tired of his sighs and arranged for them to go to an end of mid-terms party. He called up his friends, and they called up theirs and they all got together in someone’s dorm room to play Soul Caliber and DDR and pig out on pizza, soda, and ice-cream.
Shaun put some ice-cream in his orange soda and sat on a chair in the corner. Somebody knocked on the front door. He looked around, but it didn’t seem like anyone was about to abandon the game to answer. He got up himself; he needed more ice-cream anyways.
He opened the door to a gaggle of girls.
“Hey!” said the one at the front, “are we late?”
“Uh. No. I don’t think so, we’re just playing games.”
“Oh good.” She pushed past him and the other girls followed. A familiar face passed by.
“Kasey?”
The girl’s head snapped to the side. “..Shane?”
“Shaun.”
“Right!” She hit herself in the forehead. “You introduced yourself twice.”
“Ah,” Shaun rubbed the back of his neck, “I was hoping you wouldn’t remember that part.”
“Why?” She gave him a smile, “It was cute.”
“Stop flirting and close the door! It’s cold!” Somebody called from the living room.
Both Shaun and Kasey blushed. Well, Shaun blushed more; he was already red from the cute comment. Shaun shut the door and they stood in awkward silence.
“Would…you…” Shaun began.
Kasey tilted her head, “Yes?”
“Like…to…” Shaun’s voice faded away. He never knew asking someone out was this hard! “Saturday?”
Kasey looked confused for a second, then nervous. “You mean…a date?”
“Yeah…”
Kasey frowned, “I don’t think that’s a good idea.”
“Oh, you have a boyfriend?”
“No, I just don’t think that’s a good idea.” She walked past him to join the others.
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After about the sixth time he sighed Michael threw a pillow at Shaun. Shaun glared at his flat-mate. Michael glared back. “Dude, just get over her already. She wasn’t even that pretty.”
“Shut up.” Shaun covered his head with the pillow.
“Seriously. She was kind of manly looking. I don’t get your taste. Your whole life of being asexual, and you fall for some plain Jane.”
Shaun threw the pillow back at him and missed. “Shut up.”
Now it was Michael’s turn to sigh. “How about I set you up on a blind date, hm? I know some really great girls.” He said coaxingly.
“No.”
Michael gave a frustrated noise. “You’re such a downer. I’m going to my girlfriend’s apartment if all you’re going to do is moan on the floor.”
Shaun gave a moan from the floor. Michael laughed, and kicked him good naturedly in the side as he passed by. “Laters. Go outside, get some sun. Produce vitamin B.”
“That’s D, moron.”
“Eh.” With a shrug Michael was gone. After a few minutes Shaun got bored on the floor at decided to go out. A lot of people were in class, but some were waiting around for class in the Student Union building which everyone used as a commons. There was an actual commons area outside, but if any college student was outside for any amount of time they would turn to ash as their pasty white nerd skin never saw the sun.
Shaun was no exception. He stood in line for the burger joint, more out of boredom than hunger. He heard a familiar laugh and his ears fairly lifted. His head snapped around trying to find Kasey. He saw her with her back to him sitting at a lunch table with some of her friends.
Shaun got out of the line. He walked up behind her. “Kasey?”
She turned around with a smile which quickly dropped off her face. Or, rather, his face. Dressed in slacks and a tee he wore no makeup. “Shane?!”
“Uh. Shaun.”
“Shaun, right.” His voice was deeper than normal. Shaun supposed that was his actual voice. He gave a quick smile, then a frown. “I…uh.”
“Yeah…” Shaun could see that she…he was uncomfortable, “I gotta go, class, ya know? Good to see ya.”
“Right, have fun?”
Shaun walked away.
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Shaun walked into a pole.
Michael laughed at him. “Man, you got to look where you’re walking!”
Shaun gave a half-grin, and then walked into a sign. “Ow!” He held his smarting eye.
“Course, you now you can’t see where you’re walking.” Michael gave him a look, “You know, you could go talk to him.” Shaun had told him about meeting Kasey as a boy.
“Huh?”
“Kasey. It’s obvious that you still like her, him.”
Shaun put his head in his hands, “Is it that obvious?”
“Dude, you just ran into a pole. And a sign. And you been sighing. Just go talk to him already.”
Shaun sat down on the sidewalk, “I don’t know how to get a hold of him.” He had waited in the Union building for days and had yet to manage seeing him.
Michael laughed, “he’s right there.”
Shaun’s head whipped up so fast he got light-headed. “Kasey?!” He said it loudly.
The boy, who was a girl today, looked up and saw him. Looked down, then up, then down again and started to walk away.
“Kasey! Wait!”
She stopped and waited, “Yeah, Shane?”
“Shaun.”
Kasey waited, “What do you want? You want to make fun of me? Call me sick? Gross? Reassert your manliness by punching me? Make it quick, I have class.”
“Will you go out with me?” Shaun’s words came out in a rush.
Kasey looked shell-shocked and for a moment Shaun wasn‘t sure that she had heard him. “What?”
“Will you go out with me?” Shaun repeated himself.
“Are you crazy?”
“I don’t think so.”
“Why? You do know that I’m not really a girl right?”
“I know that.”
“Are you gay?”
“No.”
“So, bi then?”
“No.”
Kasey gave him a weird look. “Straight? Because then you really don‘t make sense.”
“No I’m…” Shaun paused, trying to explain it. “I’ve never liked anyone, but you. I like you. All of you. The girl-you, the boy-you, the you-you.”
Kasey gave a shaky laugh, and her cheeks turned faintly red. “You’re crazy.”
“For you.”
Kasey uncertainly gave one of her sweet smiles, “Okay.”
“Okay?”
“I’m not going to repeat myself.”
Shaun leaned in close, “Please?”
Kasey leaned in closer, “I said okay, I’ll go out with you, Shane.”
“Shaun.”
“I know.” They both laughed.
“Can…I walk you to class?” He offered his arm. Kasey took it. Away they walked.
Shaun had friends, and these friends had friends. These friends of friends wanted to go to the mall, and Shaun’s friends wanted him to come along. So it happened that Shaun was stuck at the mall while girls giggled over clothing and guys tried to impress them by doing stupid stunts. Like running up the down escalator. Shaun watched his friend Michael biff it and slide down the steps, taking a few of the other guys down with him. Laughing, Shaun shifted his position from where he was leaning against the wall, to leaning against a different spot. Someone else giggled to the side of him. Shaun looked over. One of the girls that had come along was also watching the spectacle. She laughed outright when security discovered what was going on and started yelling at them. Shaun just stared at her.
He didn’t think many people were pretty, and if he were honest with himself he wouldn’t describe her as beautiful. There was something about her though. Her smiles were quick and easy, her eyes scrunching up as she laughed; enough so he wondered if she could actually see. Her posture was confident, but when she noticed Shaun looking at her she became self-conscious. Nervously she brushed some of her chin-length brown hair behind an ear. She was tall, though shorter than Shaun.
“Hey.” Shaun said.
“Hey.” She replied.
Shaun tilted his head towards the spectacle. Michael was shrinking away from the security man. “I’m with stupid. Name’s Shaun.”
The girl smiled at him, “I came with one of my girl friends.” She gestured to someone in the pink jewelry store. “I’m Kasey.” Kasey held out her hand to shake and Shaun grasped it.
“Shaun.”
Kasey laughed, “you said that already.” Somebody called her name and she glanced over. She smiled at Shaun, “I’m being paged, it was nice meeting you.” Shaun nodded and watched her go.
“Hey man.” Michael came up to Shaun, “I’m being kicked out of the mall, do you still need a ride?”
“Yeah…” Shaun was a little less glad to leave than he would have been a few minutes ago.
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He had never liked anymore. His first brush with a crush left his head reeling. Shaun was having fun, being love-struck. Michael got tired of his sighs and arranged for them to go to an end of mid-terms party. He called up his friends, and they called up theirs and they all got together in someone’s dorm room to play Soul Caliber and DDR and pig out on pizza, soda, and ice-cream.
Shaun put some ice-cream in his orange soda and sat on a chair in the corner. Somebody knocked on the front door. He looked around, but it didn’t seem like anyone was about to abandon the game to answer. He got up himself; he needed more ice-cream anyways.
He opened the door to a gaggle of girls.
“Hey!” said the one at the front, “are we late?”
“Uh. No. I don’t think so, we’re just playing games.”
“Oh good.” She pushed past him and the other girls followed. A familiar face passed by.
“Kasey?”
The girl’s head snapped to the side. “..Shane?”
“Shaun.”
“Right!” She hit herself in the forehead. “You introduced yourself twice.”
“Ah,” Shaun rubbed the back of his neck, “I was hoping you wouldn’t remember that part.”
“Why?” She gave him a smile, “It was cute.”
“Stop flirting and close the door! It’s cold!” Somebody called from the living room.
Both Shaun and Kasey blushed. Well, Shaun blushed more; he was already red from the cute comment. Shaun shut the door and they stood in awkward silence.
“Would…you…” Shaun began.
Kasey tilted her head, “Yes?”
“Like…to…” Shaun’s voice faded away. He never knew asking someone out was this hard! “Saturday?”
Kasey looked confused for a second, then nervous. “You mean…a date?”
“Yeah…”
Kasey frowned, “I don’t think that’s a good idea.”
“Oh, you have a boyfriend?”
“No, I just don’t think that’s a good idea.” She walked past him to join the others.
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After about the sixth time he sighed Michael threw a pillow at Shaun. Shaun glared at his flat-mate. Michael glared back. “Dude, just get over her already. She wasn’t even that pretty.”
“Shut up.” Shaun covered his head with the pillow.
“Seriously. She was kind of manly looking. I don’t get your taste. Your whole life of being asexual, and you fall for some plain Jane.”
Shaun threw the pillow back at him and missed. “Shut up.”
Now it was Michael’s turn to sigh. “How about I set you up on a blind date, hm? I know some really great girls.” He said coaxingly.
“No.”
Michael gave a frustrated noise. “You’re such a downer. I’m going to my girlfriend’s apartment if all you’re going to do is moan on the floor.”
Shaun gave a moan from the floor. Michael laughed, and kicked him good naturedly in the side as he passed by. “Laters. Go outside, get some sun. Produce vitamin B.”
“That’s D, moron.”
“Eh.” With a shrug Michael was gone. After a few minutes Shaun got bored on the floor at decided to go out. A lot of people were in class, but some were waiting around for class in the Student Union building which everyone used as a commons. There was an actual commons area outside, but if any college student was outside for any amount of time they would turn to ash as their pasty white nerd skin never saw the sun.
Shaun was no exception. He stood in line for the burger joint, more out of boredom than hunger. He heard a familiar laugh and his ears fairly lifted. His head snapped around trying to find Kasey. He saw her with her back to him sitting at a lunch table with some of her friends.
Shaun got out of the line. He walked up behind her. “Kasey?”
She turned around with a smile which quickly dropped off her face. Or, rather, his face. Dressed in slacks and a tee he wore no makeup. “Shane?!”
“Uh. Shaun.”
“Shaun, right.” His voice was deeper than normal. Shaun supposed that was his actual voice. He gave a quick smile, then a frown. “I…uh.”
“Yeah…” Shaun could see that she…he was uncomfortable, “I gotta go, class, ya know? Good to see ya.”
“Right, have fun?”
Shaun walked away.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Shaun walked into a pole.
Michael laughed at him. “Man, you got to look where you’re walking!”
Shaun gave a half-grin, and then walked into a sign. “Ow!” He held his smarting eye.
“Course, you now you can’t see where you’re walking.” Michael gave him a look, “You know, you could go talk to him.” Shaun had told him about meeting Kasey as a boy.
“Huh?”
“Kasey. It’s obvious that you still like her, him.”
Shaun put his head in his hands, “Is it that obvious?”
“Dude, you just ran into a pole. And a sign. And you been sighing. Just go talk to him already.”
Shaun sat down on the sidewalk, “I don’t know how to get a hold of him.” He had waited in the Union building for days and had yet to manage seeing him.
Michael laughed, “he’s right there.”
Shaun’s head whipped up so fast he got light-headed. “Kasey?!” He said it loudly.
The boy, who was a girl today, looked up and saw him. Looked down, then up, then down again and started to walk away.
“Kasey! Wait!”
She stopped and waited, “Yeah, Shane?”
“Shaun.”
Kasey waited, “What do you want? You want to make fun of me? Call me sick? Gross? Reassert your manliness by punching me? Make it quick, I have class.”
“Will you go out with me?” Shaun’s words came out in a rush.
Kasey looked shell-shocked and for a moment Shaun wasn‘t sure that she had heard him. “What?”
“Will you go out with me?” Shaun repeated himself.
“Are you crazy?”
“I don’t think so.”
“Why? You do know that I’m not really a girl right?”
“I know that.”
“Are you gay?”
“No.”
“So, bi then?”
“No.”
Kasey gave him a weird look. “Straight? Because then you really don‘t make sense.”
“No I’m…” Shaun paused, trying to explain it. “I’ve never liked anyone, but you. I like you. All of you. The girl-you, the boy-you, the you-you.”
Kasey gave a shaky laugh, and her cheeks turned faintly red. “You’re crazy.”
“For you.”
Kasey uncertainly gave one of her sweet smiles, “Okay.”
“Okay?”
“I’m not going to repeat myself.”
Shaun leaned in close, “Please?”
Kasey leaned in closer, “I said okay, I’ll go out with you, Shane.”
“Shaun.”
“I know.” They both laughed.
“Can…I walk you to class?” He offered his arm. Kasey took it. Away they walked.