It’s been forever and a day since I’ve posted here. I’ve married, I’ve been widowed, I’ve broken my leg, been through 3 surgeries and moved twice. It feels like a lifetime has happened in these not many years ( Read more... )

I'm lonely, scared and have a hard time leaving the space/box we live in. People say talk and I'm SCREAMING! The psychiatrist is being very laid back and isn't following up and I am. I'm being rejected time and time again. Dave doesn't fully get it because I doesn't believe in all this crap, but at the same time says he supports my needs for help ( Read more... )

I feel like I've got things under control. I actually fight really hard for them to be ok. It seems the reality is I'm fighting and in the end nothing is changing and I'm expanding a lot of energy/emotion for nothing ( Read more... )

Dave and I went to a state park that me and friends used to pretty much live at. Those times were filled with so much laughter, spiritual freedom and freedom. Freedom to be who we were and embrace that. Freedom to feel what we were feeling and feeling safe in our group to share that ( Read more... )

Yup I still know what LJ is and I read it pretty much everyday, not that most use it anymore ( Read more... )

So it seems things are under way but maybe not as fast or in the manner in which I had hoped it would be. I'm not sure why I had expected anything less ( Read more... )