"like a rolling stone"
So life has been tough but it is ever harder because I am the only one who seems to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I never imagined my life this way but that does not make it wrong it just makes it different. I have been screwing around in school since about 6th grade when everything started happening with my parents hating eachother and money was tough, the year I started to work a lot because I will never be the person to depend on others to get by. Maybe I should have worked hard in school and just forget about everything else but I didn't. These were the years I spent almost everyday and night at Amandas and I could just drift away with everyone in her family I want to thank you all for always being there and still being here now especially after all that has happened. I start every term off with A's in my classes and then the world always got in the way. This is where I know I started to make choices that I will never regret but I can't talk about with pride. I filled my days with work and did all I could to make lasting friendships while destroying the one that ment the most. Shit happens and I got through it and things are looking up for the most part. I need to figure out a lot in my life but living with Colleen will no doubt set me on the right path.I know she will refuse to let me fuck up and I love to peices for it. Moving out, getting a job, getting my G.E.D., paying rent, my parents getting a divorce, patching things up with old friends, I need to get through all these things and know I can do it. Today I am stopping all the doubts that have been forced apon me.I will not sit and nod my head when I come across concerned people, I am going to tell them flat out this is my life and I know how I want to live it. Maybe me being the only one to see the light is not so bad because I am the only one who has to reach it. No one ever said they would do this for me or help me or even encourage me but honestly I don't need it.