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I really want to audition for a movie. I thought about making an audition tape and sending it off to wherever, but even the thought of recording myself while I'm home alone is kind of terrifying and awkward. If I can't record myself while I'm alone and no one knows I'm doing it, how would I become an actress?
I've always loved performing. I was in plays in middle school, but was never the lead. The one thing I remember to this day that solidified my love was my 10th grade enriched English class. We read "our town" and as part of the unit, we had to break up into groups and act it out. I somehow ended up with the first scene, which if you remember is a very long intro setting up the play. I just remember when I was finished, a boy in my class was like "holy cow, that was incredible" and my class was very receptive.
The problem is I've been too chicken shit to audition for anything locally. I don't have the energy, and even when "Rent" and "Les Mis" rolled around and I promised myself I'd audition, I never did.
I wish I could figure out what is holding me back. Probably the fear of failure and utter humiliation lol. *sigh*