Happiness is a beautiful place to be!
I love my effin life dude! I seriously am sooooo incredibly happy! I havent been this happy in a really long time! I think its all because of dance. I seriously love it and am so excited to be back! I love dancing and i love the poeple there! There seriosuly some of the best people i have ever met. I am excited to weake up every morning and dance! I dont even dance every day but i just want to go there and hang out because it makes me happy so i do sometimes haha! ANd im doing a tap solo to candyman by christina aguilera and a lyrical/ballet duet with Laura! Im so glad to be over all this shit. You know i just realized how great life is when you make it that way. ANd not only that but theres no point in being afraid...it doesnt protect you it just keeps you in an awful place. theres no point. I lived my life for 2 years being afraid thatsomething would happen. ANd then it almost did...fear ddidnt protect me ...only i can protect me. I will never be paralyxed by fear again. ANd i will never stay in that moment of hell for longer than i have to! why would anyone want to stay in a horrible moment and just drag it out even more? I dont! i want to let go. Im not gonna live in fear! im just gonna live my life and have fun yet I am going to take precautuions because that is smart and necessary! but thats all I can do ...its all anyone can do. I refuse to ever waste any more time being so paralyzed by a fear that i lose out on all the days or years in between. Maybe something eill happen...but you know what I will just fight like hell and enjoy every other moment in my life until then! I am ready to be happy and i already am! I am ready to move on and become the girl i really am...the girl ionce new but that got lost along the way! Life is what you make of it and i am ready to make mine awesome!