Breathe, Just breathe

[sundancerlmc]

Back at Le Moyne! This weekend I spent in Connecticut visiting my sister. My mom and I drove out on Saturday. It was nice to just get away form Le Moyne for a while. Especially since im done with school so i it was just relaxing- no worrying about work that had to be done or tests to study for. I came back to Le moyne late last night. I have training today for the summer RA job for a couple hrs and then im interviewing for a job in the lib working in the ILL dept. Hopefully i can get that job cuz i really need money as I am poor poor poor. Other than that this week is up in the air. I am on duty wed-sat and then checkout duty on sunday! Luckily i have duty in my room so i dont actually have to go anywhere. I'll prob just hang out with friends or start reading all these books I have been wanting to read all year but havent had the time to do. Also, i want to hang out with em and beccy cuz theyre leaving me (tear)!! Beccy is going back to england- im gonna miss her. At least she'll be around here until the end of june. Emily is graduating and leaves next wed. Shes gonna be in minn. 'til July when she leaves for Argentina where shes going to teach english. Im jealous i loved argentina....well, for the most part until it was cut short. SHe will have a blast though im sure. Its sad when all of these people leave moving on to another chapter in there lives and you are still here. Part of me is glad im still here -i still have great friends and i dont have to worry about the next step yet. Another part of me says damn im 23 and still have another year in college. Part of me just wants to get the hell out of here, move on with my life, get a job, and get as far from all this drama as possible. I guess i just have to embrace the year coming up. Have fun and do well. Use it as a stepping stone to figuring out whatevers next. All i know is that all we cad do is live. Just keep going forward. Theres no way back, no changing the past or even erasing it. Theres no rewind button!

You can't jump the track
we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass
glued to the table
no one can find the rewind
but now
so cradle your head in your hands
and
breathe, just breathe