numbness
how is it that an anniversery- knowing that date of somthing that happened a year ago is coming up- can change so much. Why can that one f-ing date send you back their? when you finally think you have gotten over it that date pops up and its all you think about. It salwl thats in your mind and wish you wish you could just make it go away but how? this week sucks and is just gonna suck more and more until its over. ugh! Im not sure i can deal with this now....im too busy for this crap. i just wanna drink and feel numb. numb is better than pain.