hello, I'm good for nothing
she cried when she should and she laughed when she could. I could have knocked off the weekend, you let me down, no use deceiving, neither of us want to be alone. But I do think about you less than I did. I'm watching my nephew running in circles, my niece carrying a can of root beer, its getting dark, my headache still lingers, the day feels so very wasted. although memoirs of a geisha was very beautiful and mesmorizing, it felt shallow and remote of japanese culture at the truest form, not to mention that many of the leads were themselves chinese. It made me dearly miss cello though, and how I wish wish wish to be able to create sounds that create feeling movement and desire. Smarter than small, have beaten frame, I hope that reminds you, of the part that you couldn't change in me. So push me, I'll fall, pull me I'll drown. I'm on fire. I swear I have a soul beneath the surface. I'm excellent at the art of falling, you'd swear I was a leaf crashing down bombed by the cold forced to float on down. They were so theatrical, I want to fuck you right then and there, I know you wanted the same. The accidental touching grazing of skin the implied safe friendly hand on the back, the lingering hug the holding smile that turns into a kiss. I felt like people were staring at our mouths connected and the music was a beautiful background. How's the food they feed you? I take my time considering the moments...I know I shouldn't take this break for granted, I should use it efficently and blah blah blah. Velvet stocking, soft robe, chai tea, my life really isn't that bad. my hair is really curly unruly today. I really thought about you today, I mean really thought about you. I wondered where you were born, what your nicknames are, what board games you had. He had a ponytail, and a mask, and I wanted to call him my own biscuit, secret lover agent man. First meeting in a breakfast diner. I really just want to stare at the ceiling, listen to something, and think about it, just that. I realized the other day how much simplier my life was when I truly thought and pondered the bigger things in my life, and didn't just briefly consider them. Haha...I said brief....boxer briefs. wow.
In the year 2006 I resolve to:
Masturbate with the opposite hand.
Get your resolution here
its so true and necessary. watched this last night, made me think of this video and it makes me giggle--http://img247.imageshack.us/my.php?image=frodo3hq5xo.gif makes me think of goodwin, how I miss him and wish he would talk to me and not be so busy. But such is the way of it. alcohol at noon, not a good trend to be picking up. its my fault you never learned much from me. We went on whole hearted. I'm trying out this strange ear bud music makers and I'm severely in a different universe. For walking on stilts on the edge of your mind. fucked me all the way down down, woman like a man, I'll get a cheaper ticket next time.
In the year 2006 I resolve to:
Masturbate with the opposite hand.
Get your resolution here
its so true and necessary. watched this last night, made me think of this video and it makes me giggle--http://img247.imageshack.us/my.php?image=frodo3hq5xo.gif makes me think of goodwin, how I miss him and wish he would talk to me and not be so busy. But such is the way of it. alcohol at noon, not a good trend to be picking up. its my fault you never learned much from me. We went on whole hearted. I'm trying out this strange ear bud music makers and I'm severely in a different universe. For walking on stilts on the edge of your mind. fucked me all the way down down, woman like a man, I'll get a cheaper ticket next time.
