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[sunbitch]

things starting to fall apart. nothing new. just found out i wasn't as good as i thought i was. i can't trust my memory at this time. i remembered myself better than i was. did i do that on purpose? why haven't i gotten any new e-mails since june 12? this summer still seems good, but it feels like something terrible is snaking its way around it. is there something wrong with my head? body? i wouldn't say so, but i think i wake up sometimes. in pain.

ahh fuck you.
fuck.
you.