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i need to start doing things for me... not because of others.. i need to not be so concerned about what others are thinking of me.. or what others are doing.
school is extremely stressful at the moment. i just took two exams today and i have a concept map due tomorrow... which is almost done. tomorrow is statia's birthday. i made cupcakes for her last night.. just need to frost them tonight. she is in the cath lab tomorrow so i'll see her at lunch. i am hoping for a somewhat simple patient tomorrow since statia is my main support at clinical and she won't be there.. at least leah will be back tomorrow.
in other news... i went to find a link in my parent's email and i came across my mother's email's with Nora. it was a very painful thing for me to read... i trusted her with so much... and i really feel like i hurt my mother terribly by getting her involved with that situation. otherwise it is a strong reminder not to be a hypocrite and not to hurt other people like that.. not that i would ever intentionally do so.
speaking of hurting people... i am extremely torn about emailing jon. i really feel terrible about the way things have ended up between us.. i understand we can't really be friends at the moment.. and that i hurt him.. but i really hurt myself much more than he even knows. i am in the process of healing at the moment... and someday i hope that he will speak with me again. it's great that he has found a new girlfriend. i hope he is happy. i really truly do.. he is a wonderful guy.
so... wednesday night is halloween. i believe kari, amanda, and i are hanging out and watching horror movies... amanda wanted to go to pinewoods cemetery which is supposed to be one of the most haunted cemeteries in the US... statues are supposed to cry blood. we shall see if that happens. i am not sure if mal and steve are joining us.. i kinda hope so... i think that i am going to ask justin to join us. i almost asked him a few times today... as he hung around where i was workin on my project.. but i wimped out.. i don't want to be stood up by anyone again.. not that it would really be a date... but i really would love to spend some time with him.
so.. i should get back to homework... and stop thinking about well.. everything..
school is extremely stressful at the moment. i just took two exams today and i have a concept map due tomorrow... which is almost done. tomorrow is statia's birthday. i made cupcakes for her last night.. just need to frost them tonight. she is in the cath lab tomorrow so i'll see her at lunch. i am hoping for a somewhat simple patient tomorrow since statia is my main support at clinical and she won't be there.. at least leah will be back tomorrow.
in other news... i went to find a link in my parent's email and i came across my mother's email's with Nora. it was a very painful thing for me to read... i trusted her with so much... and i really feel like i hurt my mother terribly by getting her involved with that situation. otherwise it is a strong reminder not to be a hypocrite and not to hurt other people like that.. not that i would ever intentionally do so.
speaking of hurting people... i am extremely torn about emailing jon. i really feel terrible about the way things have ended up between us.. i understand we can't really be friends at the moment.. and that i hurt him.. but i really hurt myself much more than he even knows. i am in the process of healing at the moment... and someday i hope that he will speak with me again. it's great that he has found a new girlfriend. i hope he is happy. i really truly do.. he is a wonderful guy.
so... wednesday night is halloween. i believe kari, amanda, and i are hanging out and watching horror movies... amanda wanted to go to pinewoods cemetery which is supposed to be one of the most haunted cemeteries in the US... statues are supposed to cry blood. we shall see if that happens. i am not sure if mal and steve are joining us.. i kinda hope so... i think that i am going to ask justin to join us. i almost asked him a few times today... as he hung around where i was workin on my project.. but i wimped out.. i don't want to be stood up by anyone again.. not that it would really be a date... but i really would love to spend some time with him.
so.. i should get back to homework... and stop thinking about well.. everything..