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Nikki left me. Now I'm sad and will miss her even more, until I finally go home. Eff. I love my friends so freakin' much. It's like, you guys don't even understand how much I love you because I could never adequately express it. Anyway, having Nik around for the week was amazing. I always forget how much fun we have unless I'm in Cali. It was amazing! And she gets along with my Indiana friends, so that's exciting since I was worried about the BFF meeting the other peeps. I only wish Andy could've come with her, but oh well.
I'm really worried about my future. About my role in the world. About my role in people's lives. About my role as a member of my family. Ugh, there's all this shit that's happening at home that I can't even be a part of, but I know when I go home I'll be able to solve some of it. I've been getting these ridiculous panic attacks where I can't breathe and the world just freezes. Oi, I've been avoiding my responsibilities for far too long. I guess it's just time to grow up.
I'm really worried about my future. About my role in the world. About my role in people's lives. About my role as a member of my family. Ugh, there's all this shit that's happening at home that I can't even be a part of, but I know when I go home I'll be able to solve some of it. I've been getting these ridiculous panic attacks where I can't breathe and the world just freezes. Oi, I've been avoiding my responsibilities for far too long. I guess it's just time to grow up.