So long ago...
I needed to write something... just anything.
Much has changed in my life since I last wrote here. I've done many things I didn't expect to actually do, I changed my appearance, my way of interacting with people, some of my views. There were quite a few happy moments in these past few months.
But I did something and I've might have ruined one of the best (if not the most suitable) thing that happened to me.
I'm fully aware that there's no future in this, that it's just for the moment, but I don't want the moment to end one minute earlier than it has to.
So please, please... the force in the Universe that rules things, if it exists and whatever form it takes... I ask that he will simply forgive me and forget the things I said and demanded.
There's only two months left for us to see each other everyday, I want to live them to the fullest, not as if we were strangers or simply acquaintances.
I know things don't work this way, simply asking for help from a higher power. But I had to get this out of my chest somehow, and also write it down how hard and horrible I feel right now, so I'll remember the feeling if I get the urge to behave beastly like that again.
Learn from your mistakes, girl... that's actually all you can ask from life.
Much has changed in my life since I last wrote here. I've done many things I didn't expect to actually do, I changed my appearance, my way of interacting with people, some of my views. There were quite a few happy moments in these past few months.
But I did something and I've might have ruined one of the best (if not the most suitable) thing that happened to me.
I'm fully aware that there's no future in this, that it's just for the moment, but I don't want the moment to end one minute earlier than it has to.
So please, please... the force in the Universe that rules things, if it exists and whatever form it takes... I ask that he will simply forgive me and forget the things I said and demanded.
There's only two months left for us to see each other everyday, I want to live them to the fullest, not as if we were strangers or simply acquaintances.
I know things don't work this way, simply asking for help from a higher power. But I had to get this out of my chest somehow, and also write it down how hard and horrible I feel right now, so I'll remember the feeling if I get the urge to behave beastly like that again.
Learn from your mistakes, girl... that's actually all you can ask from life.