Season of changes
Winter was long heralded as a time of renewal in the world, where the landscape was allowed to rest under a blanket of ice to restore itself to strength and vitality. I feel somehow now if I myself have been laying under a blanket of figurative 'ice'. I have hardly practiced my swordplay and certainly have had trouble with my spirit.
I have been feeling better though, steadily. I feel like I may not need to grit my teeth as hard to cope with movement anymore. I feel a lot less irritable as I start to feel better. Mostly though, besides the obvious abdomen issues, the pain that had settled behind my eyes is starting to clear and I am finding that my thinking is becoming easier. Anyway...
On Friday, yesterday, I fufilled a promise to my grandparents (senile as they may be) to cut my hair some. Two and a half feet have been successfully donated to a very nice cancer organization, and it is now just below my shoulders. The stylist was extremely nice (and talented to boot, I think, so I will be going back). I got a ride out there (Michelle was out of town with her Mother, so she has not seen this yet) but was left to walk the half-mile or so back. I think perhaps the most amazing thing in years happened to me during my trip home. I started to walk, two steps into it I realize how cold it is. I pick up my pace to circulate my blood and warm myself. With ten more steps I am at a full out sprint and did not stop until I was home.
I felt like I wanted to die when I stopped and my adrenaline died down, but I think it was worth it. To actually feel my legs in front of my body, playing it's rythmic and hectic beat on the sidewalk... It was the hardest I have pushed myself since I got sick. Though I was certainly out of breath and my ears felt like they were collapsing in on themselves, the pain in my stomache was barely more than a dull throb.
I think my winter is passing now.
On other notes, I have been thinkin a lot in particular about the cast crew. I want to see all of you during the holidays some time, to kick one back and thank you all for the wonderful years I have had, and hope to have still, gaming with you all. Each one of you continually puts a smile on my face, wether from humor or love, dignity or respect. I wish you all the fondest Christmas and hope to see you all on New Years.
I have been feeling better though, steadily. I feel like I may not need to grit my teeth as hard to cope with movement anymore. I feel a lot less irritable as I start to feel better. Mostly though, besides the obvious abdomen issues, the pain that had settled behind my eyes is starting to clear and I am finding that my thinking is becoming easier. Anyway...
On Friday, yesterday, I fufilled a promise to my grandparents (senile as they may be) to cut my hair some. Two and a half feet have been successfully donated to a very nice cancer organization, and it is now just below my shoulders. The stylist was extremely nice (and talented to boot, I think, so I will be going back). I got a ride out there (Michelle was out of town with her Mother, so she has not seen this yet) but was left to walk the half-mile or so back. I think perhaps the most amazing thing in years happened to me during my trip home. I started to walk, two steps into it I realize how cold it is. I pick up my pace to circulate my blood and warm myself. With ten more steps I am at a full out sprint and did not stop until I was home.
I felt like I wanted to die when I stopped and my adrenaline died down, but I think it was worth it. To actually feel my legs in front of my body, playing it's rythmic and hectic beat on the sidewalk... It was the hardest I have pushed myself since I got sick. Though I was certainly out of breath and my ears felt like they were collapsing in on themselves, the pain in my stomache was barely more than a dull throb.
I think my winter is passing now.
On other notes, I have been thinkin a lot in particular about the cast crew. I want to see all of you during the holidays some time, to kick one back and thank you all for the wonderful years I have had, and hope to have still, gaming with you all. Each one of you continually puts a smile on my face, wether from humor or love, dignity or respect. I wish you all the fondest Christmas and hope to see you all on New Years.