Full-Time Awesome
After five years at Florida International University, I hold a Bachelor's degree in Public Relations/English and a Master's in Global Strategic Communication. College life in Miami was a long process that I sometimes whined about, but looking back, I loved it. I enjoyed learning and there was something about being in school that made me feel safe,which probably explains why I was in grad school less than a year after my first graduation. It gave me an extra 18 months of being a kid and being able to procrastinate. I convinced myself that I shouldn't have a real job while I was still in school, because bartending was less stressful and more money. I also slacked and found excuses about why I couldn't or shouldn't get an internship, which I kind of regret now. I guess the real world just scared me a bit.
I can't take back the past or change it, so now all I can do is deal with the present. I am done with school and adjusting to entry level life. I started at an online marketing company in Delray Beach about two weeks ago and am trying to get the hang of it. I am a search marketing specialist, which is not really what I learned in school or dreamed of doing, but it's definitely interesting. Search engine optimization is something that is huge and continues to grow, and I see potential in it. If I can figure out what it's all about and figure out how to be great at it, there is lots of money to be made. The hardest part is learning it. It's somewhat of a foreign language to me. There's a lot of terms, and I've never really been a computer geek. But it is interesting, and I figure that even if I decide that it's not the right career choice for me, it's still great to have an understanding of it. That will give me an advantage that I can always use to my benefit in the future.
Unfortunately my entry-level salary is pretty weak, so I am still bartending for some extra cash. The extra cash is the only, and I mean absolute only, reason I'm still slinging drinks. What use to be a good time to me has gotten old, and after a long day in the cubicle I dread getting behind the bar. Schmoozing people I have no interest in and dealing with obnoxious drunks has gotten old to me and lost its fun. I am just ready to move on to the next step of my life and would love to be able to retire from bartending. If I budgeted properly and was careful with my money I could afford to survive and pay my bills, but with very little spending cash. I wouldn't be able to buy myself pretty things and take lavish vacations. So I continue to work a 70 hour work week, but the pressure is slowly getting to me.
I kind of snapped on Jeremy the past few days and I feel terrible about it. Lack of sleep and spare time has made me extremely irritable and I haven't treated him so well. While he is not perfect, he is really great to me and I don't want to drive him away.
I'm gonna take this week to work on myself, not just for him but for myself as well. I vow to come up with a plan of what to do with my bartending job situation. What I do know is that I need to cut down. I may talk to my boss and ask for fewer shifts, but I expect that it won't go well and he could fire me. It wouldn't be the end of the world, but I may hold off a bit, make some more money and then quit. Either way, for the sake of my sanity, I need to come up with some kind of plan. Between both jobs I haven't had a full day off in over three weeks and I need some kind of light at the end of the tunnel. Just having a solid plan will give me piece of mind. I am a control freak, after all.
I can't take back the past or change it, so now all I can do is deal with the present. I am done with school and adjusting to entry level life. I started at an online marketing company in Delray Beach about two weeks ago and am trying to get the hang of it. I am a search marketing specialist, which is not really what I learned in school or dreamed of doing, but it's definitely interesting. Search engine optimization is something that is huge and continues to grow, and I see potential in it. If I can figure out what it's all about and figure out how to be great at it, there is lots of money to be made. The hardest part is learning it. It's somewhat of a foreign language to me. There's a lot of terms, and I've never really been a computer geek. But it is interesting, and I figure that even if I decide that it's not the right career choice for me, it's still great to have an understanding of it. That will give me an advantage that I can always use to my benefit in the future.
Unfortunately my entry-level salary is pretty weak, so I am still bartending for some extra cash. The extra cash is the only, and I mean absolute only, reason I'm still slinging drinks. What use to be a good time to me has gotten old, and after a long day in the cubicle I dread getting behind the bar. Schmoozing people I have no interest in and dealing with obnoxious drunks has gotten old to me and lost its fun. I am just ready to move on to the next step of my life and would love to be able to retire from bartending. If I budgeted properly and was careful with my money I could afford to survive and pay my bills, but with very little spending cash. I wouldn't be able to buy myself pretty things and take lavish vacations. So I continue to work a 70 hour work week, but the pressure is slowly getting to me.
I kind of snapped on Jeremy the past few days and I feel terrible about it. Lack of sleep and spare time has made me extremely irritable and I haven't treated him so well. While he is not perfect, he is really great to me and I don't want to drive him away.
I'm gonna take this week to work on myself, not just for him but for myself as well. I vow to come up with a plan of what to do with my bartending job situation. What I do know is that I need to cut down. I may talk to my boss and ask for fewer shifts, but I expect that it won't go well and he could fire me. It wouldn't be the end of the world, but I may hold off a bit, make some more money and then quit. Either way, for the sake of my sanity, I need to come up with some kind of plan. Between both jobs I haven't had a full day off in over three weeks and I need some kind of light at the end of the tunnel. Just having a solid plan will give me piece of mind. I am a control freak, after all.