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what a few weeks.
finals are over and second semester started. i have harder classes.
bbyo formal was a mess. honestly, folks, don't drink at bbyo events. if you can't have fun without drinking, you have bigger problems than the suspension your GONNA GET!
we have convention in a month. yikes!
and adam is a happy father. im so happy for him. he really is the happiest i have ever seen him --- god bless
and i am going to see jackie this weekend. i miss her. i can't wait to just give her a big big big big hug and tell her how wonderful she is. i don't think anyone does that enough for her. and i need a jackie hug also.
and otherwise very numb. i admitted to sue that i wanted her to be my mom. that went well. she didn't actually respond --- just kinda held me as a cried over the big gaping hole that is my family life. still kinda crying about it...sue says it cause i enver grieved. whatever. but i can't explain how much it hurts --- i sometimes think that if i pick up the phone and call her she'll be the perfect mom.
but then i remember everything, and i know it's not true.
i really need my rachel right now. sometimes she is the only one who can understand my family because she has been there through all of it. since, like, gan. honestly, people like rachel are so completely irreplacable.
i love her.
finals are over and second semester started. i have harder classes.
bbyo formal was a mess. honestly, folks, don't drink at bbyo events. if you can't have fun without drinking, you have bigger problems than the suspension your GONNA GET!
we have convention in a month. yikes!
and adam is a happy father. im so happy for him. he really is the happiest i have ever seen him --- god bless
and i am going to see jackie this weekend. i miss her. i can't wait to just give her a big big big big hug and tell her how wonderful she is. i don't think anyone does that enough for her. and i need a jackie hug also.
and otherwise very numb. i admitted to sue that i wanted her to be my mom. that went well. she didn't actually respond --- just kinda held me as a cried over the big gaping hole that is my family life. still kinda crying about it...sue says it cause i enver grieved. whatever. but i can't explain how much it hurts --- i sometimes think that if i pick up the phone and call her she'll be the perfect mom.
but then i remember everything, and i know it's not true.
i really need my rachel right now. sometimes she is the only one who can understand my family because she has been there through all of it. since, like, gan. honestly, people like rachel are so completely irreplacable.
i love her.