Nov 17, 2007 19:28
Funny thing is: no one asked for your opinion. So stick a straw in it and suck it. Kthanks.
So I got the surprise of a lifetime this morning. Got a box from Jeffy, he sent me the friggin camera of my DREAMS. Thing is beautiful, and the picture quality is amazing. I was so shocked, I almost fell out of my bed. Mom laughed. I almost cried. But when I went to go for a drive to take pictures, I plugged my Ipod in to update it right quick and had to restore it to factory settings... fucker just up and decided not to play with me anymore. I got mad as shit. By the time I fixed it and put songs back on it, I had almost run out of daylight... Ack.
So as if you couldn't tell, I was a bit drunk when I wrote last nights entry... I've had the past two weeks from hell... its been one of those "if-its-not-one-thing-its-another" kind of things. Sometimes I just wish I had the courage to look down.. ya know? I know that sounds stupid but I spend so much time keeping my hear up and staring down whatever comes at me that I wish sometimes I could just look down... cuz when I'm staring ahead, I trip on things. But I dont want the disadvantage of not seeing the entirety of whats coming at me, not just the feet. I know that sounds dumb but it made sense in my head, therefore, it counts. I just realized last night after a conversation I had, that so much of my life has changed since this time last year. And it's amazing really, because while all of this was happening, I was there...obviously. But from day to day you can't SEE the difference. I can look in the mirror now and see nothing different about myself except for maybe hair color or my nose stud... superficial things, ya know? Its like when I started working at Beach Babies, I saw a little girl I hadn't seen in like 3 years. And I was stunned: she'd gotten so big. But to her parents shes still their little girl. Time changes everything so fast but its NOT fast really. Its a constant, slow process... but its not slow at all. It's so very fast and I'm afraid that if I look down, I'm gonna miss it... Life can swirl by you in the blink of an eye while you're too busy dwelling on something else...
I know not much of that made sense but oh well.
Anyway...I'm off to find something to do. I have like 9 places to be at but dont feel like going to any of them... fantastic.