So its been a long month...
It's been almost half a month since I wrote last... whoops.
There really hasn't been anything new happening lately... I've been hanging out with Steven a lot, though everyone in my life keeps warning me away from him. "He's gonna hurt you, he's gonna treat you like crap, he's an asshole, he's not YOUR relationship kinda guy, chris." Thing is: I like the kid. So I'm torn between just going my own way like i usually do, and listening to everyone else and taking a step away. I know that part of their concern of whatever is for me... I fall head over heels and get hurt almost fail-proof. But everyone warned me away from Marc too: same thing. "He won't stick around, he never does. he'll love ya and leave ya, he doesn't DO commitment, be careful, he's a player." That kinda shit. And I kept him for 18 months. Not like it was some huge feat... but I loved him... And that got us through for a while. In any case, I learned THEN to listen to what people have to say but you dont neccessarily have to take it to heart and DO what they say... but i dont know... I'm stuck. And I really dont feel like being unneccesarily hurt again but at the same time i keep thinking: will i regret this if i DONT give him a chance? Or will I regret it if i DO?
Thing is... I'd rather do it and regret it after. Cuz I can deal with those lessons: ya live, ya learn. And in all reality, I dont usually regret things like that. You take away so much more than you came into, ya know? So I think I'm gonna go roll with it for now and see what happens... Dunno.
Classes started back up. They're not bad. Have to write like 8 millions speeches and then I have like....2 research papers. Not bad at all.
Um... Osh Kosh is... interesting. My store manager totally quit yesterday... so now we get MIchael, who's amazing but apparently runs a wicked tight ship, so we're all going to be fucked. Cuz Jenn doesn't do shit... We're gonna be culture shocked when he comes in and starts doing things... none of us are going to know how to COPE with that. Which I think will be a good change, I don't hever, know if he'll make me take my nose piercing out which will piss me off, even though its in the dress code. I dont know tho, cuz it also says that guys can't have earrings or long hair and he's got them both so I dont know whats going on there. I was thinking about quitting anyway, I just need the kind of money I'm making... Cuuuz the moneys nice. And I could really go anywhere and get a supervising job now cuz I have the training.
OH fucking computer system totally crashed last night at work. I got really mad. Piece of shit just DIED at like 9:10. Gr. Got it back up and running but I was pissed as hell.
ANyway: got a new iPod cuz I dropped mine in the parking lot at school and I think I dislodged the battery cuz it on runs on AC power now... go figure. Cant even update the damn thing... poo. So I got a new one. I got the new iPod nano. It's Product Red too, to support the AIDS research in Africa thingy.
Anyway... gonna go finish trying to make my new iPod some what CLOSE to being as musically superior as my other one... that was why I hadn't bought a new one before NOW. I didnt want to have to resynch everything and make it MINE. My old one was perfect. Now this one's missing shit and i have to re DL a bunch of stuff and... ugh. Pain in the ass.
But its so pretty. Hah.
Okkkk byeee
There really hasn't been anything new happening lately... I've been hanging out with Steven a lot, though everyone in my life keeps warning me away from him. "He's gonna hurt you, he's gonna treat you like crap, he's an asshole, he's not YOUR relationship kinda guy, chris." Thing is: I like the kid. So I'm torn between just going my own way like i usually do, and listening to everyone else and taking a step away. I know that part of their concern of whatever is for me... I fall head over heels and get hurt almost fail-proof. But everyone warned me away from Marc too: same thing. "He won't stick around, he never does. he'll love ya and leave ya, he doesn't DO commitment, be careful, he's a player." That kinda shit. And I kept him for 18 months. Not like it was some huge feat... but I loved him... And that got us through for a while. In any case, I learned THEN to listen to what people have to say but you dont neccessarily have to take it to heart and DO what they say... but i dont know... I'm stuck. And I really dont feel like being unneccesarily hurt again but at the same time i keep thinking: will i regret this if i DONT give him a chance? Or will I regret it if i DO?
Thing is... I'd rather do it and regret it after. Cuz I can deal with those lessons: ya live, ya learn. And in all reality, I dont usually regret things like that. You take away so much more than you came into, ya know? So I think I'm gonna go roll with it for now and see what happens... Dunno.
Classes started back up. They're not bad. Have to write like 8 millions speeches and then I have like....2 research papers. Not bad at all.
Um... Osh Kosh is... interesting. My store manager totally quit yesterday... so now we get MIchael, who's amazing but apparently runs a wicked tight ship, so we're all going to be fucked. Cuz Jenn doesn't do shit... We're gonna be culture shocked when he comes in and starts doing things... none of us are going to know how to COPE with that. Which I think will be a good change, I don't hever, know if he'll make me take my nose piercing out which will piss me off, even though its in the dress code. I dont know tho, cuz it also says that guys can't have earrings or long hair and he's got them both so I dont know whats going on there. I was thinking about quitting anyway, I just need the kind of money I'm making... Cuuuz the moneys nice. And I could really go anywhere and get a supervising job now cuz I have the training.
OH fucking computer system totally crashed last night at work. I got really mad. Piece of shit just DIED at like 9:10. Gr. Got it back up and running but I was pissed as hell.
ANyway: got a new iPod cuz I dropped mine in the parking lot at school and I think I dislodged the battery cuz it on runs on AC power now... go figure. Cant even update the damn thing... poo. So I got a new one. I got the new iPod nano. It's Product Red too, to support the AIDS research in Africa thingy.
Anyway... gonna go finish trying to make my new iPod some what CLOSE to being as musically superior as my other one... that was why I hadn't bought a new one before NOW. I didnt want to have to resynch everything and make it MINE. My old one was perfect. Now this one's missing shit and i have to re DL a bunch of stuff and... ugh. Pain in the ass.
But its so pretty. Hah.
Okkkk byeee