good day
it's days like today that remind me why i keep going. As long as i remember that i can have good days and that there are people out there who care and people who want to help and that one day i will get where i want to go, then i can get through this. I saw Jo today which was nice becaus i haven't bothered going for a while mainly because that place reminds me of when i was skinny and its full of skinny people and i always wish i was like that again when i go there (i always feel twice as fat when i'm there). She made me realise though that as long as i can hold on to my plans then i can keep going, it's when i start thinking there is no future for me (or refuse to think about the future because it's just too scary) that i lose the will to fight. I've had a pretty bad couple of weeks and i needed the boost that she gave me. I'm a bit scared about moving because i do rely on her, she's taught me so much about myself and made me work on bringing out the best in myself. I'm scared that i wont be able to cope on my own, i'm scared that if i let myself relapse again then the help i need wont be there and it will take away the rest of my life.
House situation is same as although now we have had more people to value it and there is now a 175grand difference between the highest and lowest value. I thought that estate agents were meant to know what they were doing and talking about but obviously not. Theres a farmer in our village who wants to buy it and he came to look around. We've given him the top 3 values and now we have to wait for him to get back to us, i have this feeling though that he is not going to want to pay so much money. It's stressful not knowing though so hopefully he will hurry up and tell us that he doesn't or does want it so we know what we are doing.
Business side of things is brilliant. The princes trust have been great, they are now almost certainly giving me a grant of £850 to spend on things that i will need to get it going. I will be setting up my website using one of the templates from here:
http://www.streamline.net/sw.php
I will personalise it etc. and make it as pretty as i can. I can't chose one though there are too many.
They're helping me with all the accounts, plans and shitty boring side of things too.
I NEED TO SHUT UP
byeeee
xxx
House situation is same as although now we have had more people to value it and there is now a 175grand difference between the highest and lowest value. I thought that estate agents were meant to know what they were doing and talking about but obviously not. Theres a farmer in our village who wants to buy it and he came to look around. We've given him the top 3 values and now we have to wait for him to get back to us, i have this feeling though that he is not going to want to pay so much money. It's stressful not knowing though so hopefully he will hurry up and tell us that he doesn't or does want it so we know what we are doing.
Business side of things is brilliant. The princes trust have been great, they are now almost certainly giving me a grant of £850 to spend on things that i will need to get it going. I will be setting up my website using one of the templates from here:
http://www.streamline.net/sw.php
I will personalise it etc. and make it as pretty as i can. I can't chose one though there are too many.
They're helping me with all the accounts, plans and shitty boring side of things too.
I NEED TO SHUT UP
byeeee
xxx