The start of a new beginning... hopefully.
So I joined this collegeboard site... It's organized to find colleges that fit your needs, and hopefully narrow your search down to one or two colleges... For some reason, Ohio has been huge in these searches. I'm kinda of taking that as a sign.
While I was searching, I came across Youngstown State University... It's 4 hours and 15 minutes from my house. I could easily drive, and while lots of weekend trips might not be possible... that might be for the best. Afterall, how can I find who I am when I don't even know how to be myself at home?
This College looks amazing. It has every degree program I've ever wanted to go into, and then some. It has every activity and club I could ask for (even dance!!!). And it looks like it's really close to Canton, which is AWESOME, cos Liz and Sarah and Brian are all there. AMAZING!
Chances of me getting in if I apply are huge... my GPA is higher then majority of the freshman class (that's what I'd prolly go in as...).
I'm going to pray a lot, and try to put this in God's hands. The hardest part I'm going to have with that is getting my own opinions and thoughts out of the way. But mostly, I think I need to pray for my mom's acceptance of this school, and this choice. Being just over four hours away from home is going to be a pretty big deal to her... She's going to worry more, and cry more, and probably take it personally that I don't want to be closer to home... but at the same time, this needs to be something she thinks about for me. Where I go to college is going to have a huge effect on my happiness.
And in being perfectly honest here.... Mansfield doesn't make me happy.
I love the people here. I've made some amazing friends, and I love them more than anything... but I can't keep fooling myself that Mansfield is the place for me.
Mansfield was the one and only college I looked at. The only one I auditioned at. I applied to others, (all SUNY schools, ps) but didn't see any. Didn't sing for any. Didn't think about any others. And I'm glad I've been here. But it's time I continued to grow up.
So, please keep me and this situation in your thoughts, as I brave talking to my family about it. :o) And thanks in advance. :o)
While I was searching, I came across Youngstown State University... It's 4 hours and 15 minutes from my house. I could easily drive, and while lots of weekend trips might not be possible... that might be for the best. Afterall, how can I find who I am when I don't even know how to be myself at home?
This College looks amazing. It has every degree program I've ever wanted to go into, and then some. It has every activity and club I could ask for (even dance!!!). And it looks like it's really close to Canton, which is AWESOME, cos Liz and Sarah and Brian are all there. AMAZING!
Chances of me getting in if I apply are huge... my GPA is higher then majority of the freshman class (that's what I'd prolly go in as...).
I'm going to pray a lot, and try to put this in God's hands. The hardest part I'm going to have with that is getting my own opinions and thoughts out of the way. But mostly, I think I need to pray for my mom's acceptance of this school, and this choice. Being just over four hours away from home is going to be a pretty big deal to her... She's going to worry more, and cry more, and probably take it personally that I don't want to be closer to home... but at the same time, this needs to be something she thinks about for me. Where I go to college is going to have a huge effect on my happiness.
And in being perfectly honest here.... Mansfield doesn't make me happy.
I love the people here. I've made some amazing friends, and I love them more than anything... but I can't keep fooling myself that Mansfield is the place for me.
Mansfield was the one and only college I looked at. The only one I auditioned at. I applied to others, (all SUNY schools, ps) but didn't see any. Didn't sing for any. Didn't think about any others. And I'm glad I've been here. But it's time I continued to grow up.
So, please keep me and this situation in your thoughts, as I brave talking to my family about it. :o) And thanks in advance. :o)