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i hate to be selfish, but ryan, i really really don't want you to go away. i don't like this whole 'i don't know how long i'll be gone' stuff. it makes me uncomfortable. i know you'll be back but i've never had good experiences with things like this, so i'm nervous. and the whole fact that i can't last two days without talking to you. i'm not going to lie, i'm really upset. i hope this post doesn't upset you.
i want to go to the metropolitan museum of art.
or the zoo.
and those movies.
oh god, what a horrible autumn.
[i want to see him but i know i won't because it's him and like all other him's he has come to hate me. a pig. in a cage. on antibiotics. i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate. hate hate hate.]
i want to go to the metropolitan museum of art.
or the zoo.
and those movies.
oh god, what a horrible autumn.
[i want to see him but i know i won't because it's him and like all other him's he has come to hate me. a pig. in a cage. on antibiotics. i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate. hate hate hate.]