New Years Day 2
Things are going well. I'm very thankful for the friends and people and family in my life. But, I know I have neglected my online friends for a long time. This is due to a medication I did not know I was addicted to. When we were on a boat trip in September I ran out of the medication and started having withdrawal symptom. I did not want to acknowledge I had become addicted to clonazepan. I had been using it since the year 2001 it was prescribed for my post traumatic stress disorder. Because it was prescribed by the doctor I have had for over 20 years I did not think to question it. It was only when I finished withdrawals I realized I had a problem. I do not blame my doctor I blame myself for being naive and taking the pill. I realized how withdrawn I have become I had retired two years previously at 50. I have 33 years of service credit so I was able to retire young. During my time being retired I have become with drawn, reclusive, and all around lazy. You are probably lucky I was not online whining. I'm thankful that my family and friends are supportive in loving but I miss all of you making a commitment I maybe a goal to journal at least once a week. I do hope most of you well keep me in your life however I no I don't deserve it. That's all for now thank you.