you drive me down.
"we've changed, it's not the same anymore..."
sometimes. that sucks. sometimes it makes me want to crawl underneath something heavy enough to crush me till i cannot breath. but this time, i think, maybe i saw it coming. i don't know how i could have missed it, it was blinding to the point where i started closing my eyes to save myself. selfish, selfish. but now, my eyes are wide open, and averted. lord knows, i'll always have that glare in the corner of my eye, but that's not really my choice. i think a need a chance to bend, hopelly not break, but bend. to places i thought were impossible, or unmanagable. i think everyone owes it to themselves, to bend. cause in the end, the only one you can blame is yourself.
it's been a while since i've had both my feet on the ground, not cemented of course because that's just boring, but there is more a pull. of course my thoughts wander, but i don't fall over nearly as much. i like being upright. upright is a good look for me.