disperato.

[sumthingpretty]

why on gods earth would someone strive to feel nothing?
i mean i understand why, its sooo much easier.
i would know just as much as anyone else.
i knew for four months straight.
and still struggle wiht it today.
but when i see a friend trying to and accomplishing it wihtout drugs
i get sad. i get really sad. and i try to help them.
but then they push me away. and i understand but i dont.
i want to help them i need to help them. i dont want them
to go and throw every fucking thing away over
emotions not being able to handle them
it makes me sooo fucking angry but i feel so bad.
i hope i can help her.

on another note

i miss him...bad