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Lately I have taken a step back and truly looked at where I am at right now, and let me tell you, its not a great place. Im about to turn twenty five and really have screwed myself up more than I could have ever imagined. I definitely regret my poor choices when it comes to my school situation. I mean I have always loved school, I just was reveling in the social aspect too much and screwed up. I cant go back until I pay off my student loans..a daunting task, I assure you. I am dieing to go back though, I mean, these are uncertain times for everyone financially but especially when you have to rely on crappy jobs that just barely pay enough to get by. I dont know what I really want to do as a career but I know that I cant go on like this. Also, I always thought I would have been around the world and back by now and here I am never even been to new york or california. I am a dreamer and thats all. I definitely need to figure something out. I just dont know. As of right now, I am not living in any aspect of my life, just existing.