Work Life and other things and Happy New Year
The past month since my return back to the office has gone surprisingly well. Over the two months I had time to relax and recover a few things came across that reminded me how important it is to slow down, take a step back, and look (no not just glance) at the larger picture life presents to me. For one, what thing am I trying to hurry along by being grouchy and bitchy at the office because things aren't getting done the way I feel most comfortable with? Another, why am I fighting with a co-worker who everyone agrees has too many issues and should have been let go a long time ago?
The key solution (for me) to both of those questions is, again, step back and look at the big picture. Is this person or this job holding me back from me doing anything I want to do with my life - asides from that grand trip around the world and being the most popular fuck on the face of the planet? No. In fact, this job is to this point, what it is. And, that is okay. During my time away from the office I had plenty of things to think about and mostly it was all about how I act/react to everything that goes on around me. In my soul-searching, I admitted to myself that I over react and because of that I gave myself little ulcers, bad moods, fits of depression and a whole host of other little psychological bullshit that is not worth all the effort over.
The past two weeks were great. I got along with everyone, everyone got along with me. When there was a problem, instead of forcing my way, or stepping in where I probably didn't need to I just let things unfold on their own and waited for someone to ask for my opinion on how to solve the problem. If the asking didn't come, I moved right along. If I started to feel crappy and felt left out, I just said to myself it's not my concern, not my problem.. move right along.
I'm beginning to practice that last bit in my personal relationships as well (well insofar as feeling left out anyway) I've had some fun times with friends over the past two weeks and I can't ever forget all the friends that came by to wish me well at the hospital.
I won't say all of this is easy. It's not. As much as I despised hearing this from teachers, it's all in how much I practice, practice, practice - until I get it right.
New Years is looking to be a blast. I'll be in Indiana with some friends for the weekend. Relaxation, enjoyment of being away from the city for a little bit, and then looking forward to a return to a New Year and see what this one has in store for me. 2005 was certainly a ringer, in all ways, shapes, and forms..
Happy New Year!
joseph
The key solution (for me) to both of those questions is, again, step back and look at the big picture. Is this person or this job holding me back from me doing anything I want to do with my life - asides from that grand trip around the world and being the most popular fuck on the face of the planet? No. In fact, this job is to this point, what it is. And, that is okay. During my time away from the office I had plenty of things to think about and mostly it was all about how I act/react to everything that goes on around me. In my soul-searching, I admitted to myself that I over react and because of that I gave myself little ulcers, bad moods, fits of depression and a whole host of other little psychological bullshit that is not worth all the effort over.
The past two weeks were great. I got along with everyone, everyone got along with me. When there was a problem, instead of forcing my way, or stepping in where I probably didn't need to I just let things unfold on their own and waited for someone to ask for my opinion on how to solve the problem. If the asking didn't come, I moved right along. If I started to feel crappy and felt left out, I just said to myself it's not my concern, not my problem.. move right along.
I'm beginning to practice that last bit in my personal relationships as well (well insofar as feeling left out anyway) I've had some fun times with friends over the past two weeks and I can't ever forget all the friends that came by to wish me well at the hospital.
I won't say all of this is easy. It's not. As much as I despised hearing this from teachers, it's all in how much I practice, practice, practice - until I get it right.
New Years is looking to be a blast. I'll be in Indiana with some friends for the weekend. Relaxation, enjoyment of being away from the city for a little bit, and then looking forward to a return to a New Year and see what this one has in store for me. 2005 was certainly a ringer, in all ways, shapes, and forms..
Happy New Year!
joseph