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Okay, so I've moved into my own apartment. I should have my car paid off in a couple of months, lord willing! I'm working two jobs and even though I am still kind of skimming by for the time being (until the car is paid off), I've actually got a little savings account started, and I can pay my bills. Things are going okay in those departments. The one thing that has caught up with me is my weight. Weighing in at a whopping 225.5lbs...HARRIET! UNACCEPTABLE, and yet I've allowed it to happen. I know, not over night...but still. The past few months, I've really noticed the way my body looks in clothes, how I've gotten more belly. And it seems like it happened overnight, but I know it didn't. I think I've gotten more self conscious, especially around my thinner friends. I've been envious of women that I've known who have lost weight, and I've thought to myself...why can't I do what they do? I've tried the Weight Watchers, I've tried cutting back...I haven't stuck to an exercise program but I was very active last year dancing. Since I've been working at Blind Horse, I haven't been able to dance as much, so I know that has something to do with it. I've really felt like I just couldn't do this on my own. My will power sucks. My ability and willingness to write every single thing down and assign a point to it is lacking. So I've decided to do it a different way.
I started going to the Bariatric Clinic here in Greenville. I'm only on my first week, but I think this is going to help me with several things. Granted, they do use drugs to suppress appetite and cravings, but that's what I need. Its really been wonderful actually. I hate to have food consume my moods, my social life, every aspect of life practically. I don't have specific cravings for foods, so I can shop for healthy foods and just eat them...not because I'm hungry, but because I know I have to eat. I'm drinking lots of water and eating smaller portions. Its almost like you can wipe the slate clean and start over.
I have my first follow up appointment next Thursday so I'll repost and let everyone know how much weight I've lost in two weeks. I'm excited, because I can tell I've lost weight already. My biggest obstacle now is a regular exercise routine. I've got to start being more active!!!
I started going to the Bariatric Clinic here in Greenville. I'm only on my first week, but I think this is going to help me with several things. Granted, they do use drugs to suppress appetite and cravings, but that's what I need. Its really been wonderful actually. I hate to have food consume my moods, my social life, every aspect of life practically. I don't have specific cravings for foods, so I can shop for healthy foods and just eat them...not because I'm hungry, but because I know I have to eat. I'm drinking lots of water and eating smaller portions. Its almost like you can wipe the slate clean and start over.
I have my first follow up appointment next Thursday so I'll repost and let everyone know how much weight I've lost in two weeks. I'm excited, because I can tell I've lost weight already. My biggest obstacle now is a regular exercise routine. I've got to start being more active!!!