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[sumomnistimes]

i don't know if lake county air intoxicated me with the desire to change, but nothing i've done lately has been to secure myself in a pattern, nothing but efforts to become someone else. someone who doesn't typify himself as an unlucky chap with nothing going for him. he needs to leave, his frown brings us all down. am i disguising myself or enhancing my already existent person? whether i'm playing hide and seek with my inevitable personality, i do not know. i do know, much like a key that does not fit the lock, i need to find something more suitable (conducive?) to my wants in life. i know i can't shadow shame under the guise of fit abs, so my struggle knows no boundaries and lurks in mind and body.

i'm winning this one, destiny.