My Job
I have to work today. I hate my job. I want my job to die and go very far away. However, I get to quit. I am terrified to do that, though. I mean. . . I found a very reasonable health insurance that I am happy with. Faith has given me the nod but. . . there is something keeping me. . . keeping me from giving my notice.
I am quitting my job so I can concentrate on going to school full time. I will take about 16 credits and just go to school and take care of the house and study. Faith is being so fucking supportive but WHY AM I HESITATING! Things are good. Things are so good and solid. I am being a complete ass and need to get over this. Any input would be completely welcome. Some friendly insight. . . .
UGH. . . .
On a lighter note. . . we are getting a new roof put on our house this week. You won't believe this but: It's a gift from my parents. Seriously. I am stunned and touched, and beside myself with gratitude. Our relationship has changed so much in the past year. I am so completely in love with them again and feel so fortunate to have them in my life. I missed them so much. So, anyway. . . yeah, a new roof. How about that? Thanks Mom and Dad!
I leave for Utah in about two weeks. I am so geeked. People keep teasing me about going to Utah and how boring and sucky it is but, I am so excited. It's going to be wonderful and beautiful and Faith and I are going to have a wonderful time. Okay, I am out for now. More later, I hope.
OKAY, so I slept on it and came back and want to add. . . .
I am seriously toiling here. The job I have is a good one. Nice pay, excellent benefits and tuition reimbursement. But, I don't want to be there. I am absolutely miserable there. There are two people I like and, on ocassion, I like a few others but, I have issue with how differently I am treated by co-workes because of the gay issue. It's gotten so much better but still. . . when they have conversations about weddings and kids and I contribute, I get cut off.
Part of me just feels like I shouldn't quit. Like working is what I need to do and it qould be dumb to not do it. But, financially, we can make it. THere will be no expensive shopping trips and eating out will have to cut way back but, I can do that. I love to cook, I don't need to shop and. . . I think I can be really good with budgeting and such. I just feel so guilty for not working. But, I want to attack school head on. I want to not have anything but taking care of my house, going to class and studying to focus on.
Like I said, I have insurance that is good and a reasonable price available. Faith is totally supportive, and financially this is so completely doable. Why am I hesitating?
Okay, thanks for letting me whine but. . . I need all of your suggestions!
I am quitting my job so I can concentrate on going to school full time. I will take about 16 credits and just go to school and take care of the house and study. Faith is being so fucking supportive but WHY AM I HESITATING! Things are good. Things are so good and solid. I am being a complete ass and need to get over this. Any input would be completely welcome. Some friendly insight. . . .
UGH. . . .
On a lighter note. . . we are getting a new roof put on our house this week. You won't believe this but: It's a gift from my parents. Seriously. I am stunned and touched, and beside myself with gratitude. Our relationship has changed so much in the past year. I am so completely in love with them again and feel so fortunate to have them in my life. I missed them so much. So, anyway. . . yeah, a new roof. How about that? Thanks Mom and Dad!
I leave for Utah in about two weeks. I am so geeked. People keep teasing me about going to Utah and how boring and sucky it is but, I am so excited. It's going to be wonderful and beautiful and Faith and I are going to have a wonderful time. Okay, I am out for now. More later, I hope.
OKAY, so I slept on it and came back and want to add. . . .
I am seriously toiling here. The job I have is a good one. Nice pay, excellent benefits and tuition reimbursement. But, I don't want to be there. I am absolutely miserable there. There are two people I like and, on ocassion, I like a few others but, I have issue with how differently I am treated by co-workes because of the gay issue. It's gotten so much better but still. . . when they have conversations about weddings and kids and I contribute, I get cut off.
Part of me just feels like I shouldn't quit. Like working is what I need to do and it qould be dumb to not do it. But, financially, we can make it. THere will be no expensive shopping trips and eating out will have to cut way back but, I can do that. I love to cook, I don't need to shop and. . . I think I can be really good with budgeting and such. I just feel so guilty for not working. But, I want to attack school head on. I want to not have anything but taking care of my house, going to class and studying to focus on.
Like I said, I have insurance that is good and a reasonable price available. Faith is totally supportive, and financially this is so completely doable. Why am I hesitating?
Okay, thanks for letting me whine but. . . I need all of your suggestions!