"maybe your only alotted a certain amount of tears per man - and I've used all mine up"
Life has taken a serious twist in recent months.
It's odd because, aoane day I'm totally happy with everything and the decisions I have made, then another day i could just be content yet wondering, "what if".
Where would i be right now if i had done things differently?
and my answer is: .....i have no idea.
maybe, we're suppose to think like that. maybe we're not suppose to know where we would be or what wouldve happened if things went differently in our lives. maybe those are the mistakes our parents always tell us we learn from. i just seem to be confused with the fact that all of this has happened. that my life changed so drastically. is this a mistake im willing to live with?
i think about the past year of my life and there is not one moment of it that i would change. not one. in fact, a part of me now, after 2 months, wishes i could go back in time to march 13 and freeze that day forever. not because of the day or what it meant or where we were going. but because of the feeling i had that day, i know nothing can ever top it.
maybe that is the mistake i have to deal with. giving up something that great. and for what?
not saying im not happy. I am, I'm doing great. but you cant help but miss what you've once had. what you had, that everyone else wanted.
It's odd because, aoane day I'm totally happy with everything and the decisions I have made, then another day i could just be content yet wondering, "what if".
Where would i be right now if i had done things differently?
and my answer is: .....i have no idea.
maybe, we're suppose to think like that. maybe we're not suppose to know where we would be or what wouldve happened if things went differently in our lives. maybe those are the mistakes our parents always tell us we learn from. i just seem to be confused with the fact that all of this has happened. that my life changed so drastically. is this a mistake im willing to live with?
i think about the past year of my life and there is not one moment of it that i would change. not one. in fact, a part of me now, after 2 months, wishes i could go back in time to march 13 and freeze that day forever. not because of the day or what it meant or where we were going. but because of the feeling i had that day, i know nothing can ever top it.
maybe that is the mistake i have to deal with. giving up something that great. and for what?
not saying im not happy. I am, I'm doing great. but you cant help but miss what you've once had. what you had, that everyone else wanted.