Jun 09, 2006 21:29
I can't help myself. It's like I have no control over my own feelings. I just feel a need to comfort her. No matter how angry, hurt, lonely, and afraid I feel, I cannot stop thinking about how much I love her. And I know she feels the same way.
My arm hurts a lot now. I think I need to go into the hospital to get stitches. It won't stop flowing in the middle one. Lately, when something happens, I feel like I cannot fight my urges to cut myself. And I don't know why i do it. It makes me sadder and I know it hurts her. I'm sorry.... I just didn't know of anything else I could do.
Christy, I know you'll read this somewhere, some how. Please......