Oh, I rant EVERYWHERE don't I....
I originally wrote this up on my other journal, but since it's completly fic related, I decided to post it here. I'm hesitant on that- I sorta wanted to keep from spamming this journal up- but, you know... that's what I do. I spam. So, opps.
Despite all my endless complaining about how No Good Plot will come to me, I DO rather adore writing Remus and Tonks. As characters, they're just so wonderful. Tonks is just SO witty- I ADORE witty characters, because I'm so NOT, and so WRITING them witty is just WONDERFUL. And Remus is just a delight to write- he's intelligent and speaks in this very lovely manner (not old english or anything, not even REMOTELY close, but more politely at any rate than most people do) and his emo-ing out about how useless and old and poor and etc he is are REALLY great to write. I want to strangle him of course, but I have Dora there to do it for me (that said, as I write them, at the beginning of HBP her opinion towards him is basically YOU'RE A BLOODY IDIOT which basically leads to- I Don't Want To Deal With This Anymore, I Just Want You Back. Please, stop this, please. - And I STILL need to figure out WHAT happens to break her and make her SO avoid him. And in an old fic I was writing I came across a good reason- she didn't want to loose her composure in front of anyone else, because she knew if she saw him she WOULD break down and didn't feel like having half the Order SEEING her break down, and that reason certaintly fits with the fact that they had seen each other 'Hundreds of times' for him to say no- because its very obvious, I think, that he had said 'yes' during OOTP, so they NEED hundreds of times during HBP to see each other, and so that says she isn't against seeing him altogether, just in public- but I still think there needs to be more. I'm editing up an argument between them, and I think it'll come up in the end. But then again, what I just wrote makes most sense, I think. Maybe.
But I think at the end of this I'm going to have him fairly break her. But I need to figure out what would break her, and at the same time leave her still loving him.
OH, its wonderful! And I like writing it even more so than Happy-Ootp-Them (it just feels WRONG to write Happy Flirting Remus, even if it MUST have been what happened). I also need to learn WHY Remus' opinion changed SO dramatically- I do agree with Fern that prolonged exposure with the werewolves WILL convince him that he is nothing, but what makes him call it off at first? And I think he definitely calls it off- though, I suppose, it could be just at first him going off with the werewolves and her being so depressed because she's worried sick about him, and THEN he starts on the whole I'm Not Worthy Of You thing, but... he can take care of himself. The way she's so utterly depressed at first- I think he DID call it off, and rather dramtically, FOR her to get like that. (That and if it was the other, I'd have to re-write this entire thing I'm writing... and I like it?)
So in that case, I need to learn WHAT goes through Remus' head to suddenly make him turn a 360. To make him go from happily being with her to, well, telling her he's not worthy at all o_0. Sirius' death makes sense in it, but... the more I think about it, the more the former makes sense, but... I don't know.
And I don't want to scrap this o_0.
*Ponders*
(OH! The point was, I love writing them, and I love writing Remus with his eternal Not-Worthy monologues, and writing Dora's answers back to them. Not that heard them of course, since she can't read minds, so it has no point in the story... but it amused me lol.)
I'm too tired to think about this. Blah. Sleep. *AND ONCE AGAIN NO HOMEWORK*
Anyway: Lines I was talking about-
Remus inner monologue: Except it wasn’t Dora, at least, it wasn’t his Dora (not that he had any right to ever call her that, of course.)
What Dora Would Respond If She Heard: Of course you can call me 'yours' you git. I AM yours. As you are mine. As is the definition of being together, which despite your recent string of prat-ness we most certainly are. Git.
Despite all my endless complaining about how No Good Plot will come to me, I DO rather adore writing Remus and Tonks. As characters, they're just so wonderful. Tonks is just SO witty- I ADORE witty characters, because I'm so NOT, and so WRITING them witty is just WONDERFUL. And Remus is just a delight to write- he's intelligent and speaks in this very lovely manner (not old english or anything, not even REMOTELY close, but more politely at any rate than most people do) and his emo-ing out about how useless and old and poor and etc he is are REALLY great to write. I want to strangle him of course, but I have Dora there to do it for me (that said, as I write them, at the beginning of HBP her opinion towards him is basically YOU'RE A BLOODY IDIOT which basically leads to- I Don't Want To Deal With This Anymore, I Just Want You Back. Please, stop this, please. - And I STILL need to figure out WHAT happens to break her and make her SO avoid him. And in an old fic I was writing I came across a good reason- she didn't want to loose her composure in front of anyone else, because she knew if she saw him she WOULD break down and didn't feel like having half the Order SEEING her break down, and that reason certaintly fits with the fact that they had seen each other 'Hundreds of times' for him to say no- because its very obvious, I think, that he had said 'yes' during OOTP, so they NEED hundreds of times during HBP to see each other, and so that says she isn't against seeing him altogether, just in public- but I still think there needs to be more. I'm editing up an argument between them, and I think it'll come up in the end. But then again, what I just wrote makes most sense, I think. Maybe.
But I think at the end of this I'm going to have him fairly break her. But I need to figure out what would break her, and at the same time leave her still loving him.
OH, its wonderful! And I like writing it even more so than Happy-Ootp-Them (it just feels WRONG to write Happy Flirting Remus, even if it MUST have been what happened). I also need to learn WHY Remus' opinion changed SO dramatically- I do agree with Fern that prolonged exposure with the werewolves WILL convince him that he is nothing, but what makes him call it off at first? And I think he definitely calls it off- though, I suppose, it could be just at first him going off with the werewolves and her being so depressed because she's worried sick about him, and THEN he starts on the whole I'm Not Worthy Of You thing, but... he can take care of himself. The way she's so utterly depressed at first- I think he DID call it off, and rather dramtically, FOR her to get like that. (That and if it was the other, I'd have to re-write this entire thing I'm writing... and I like it?)
So in that case, I need to learn WHAT goes through Remus' head to suddenly make him turn a 360. To make him go from happily being with her to, well, telling her he's not worthy at all o_0. Sirius' death makes sense in it, but... the more I think about it, the more the former makes sense, but... I don't know.
And I don't want to scrap this o_0.
*Ponders*
(OH! The point was, I love writing them, and I love writing Remus with his eternal Not-Worthy monologues, and writing Dora's answers back to them. Not that heard them of course, since she can't read minds, so it has no point in the story... but it amused me lol.)
I'm too tired to think about this. Blah. Sleep. *AND ONCE AGAIN NO HOMEWORK*
Anyway: Lines I was talking about-
Remus inner monologue: Except it wasn’t Dora, at least, it wasn’t his Dora (not that he had any right to ever call her that, of course.)
What Dora Would Respond If She Heard: Of course you can call me 'yours' you git. I AM yours. As you are mine. As is the definition of being together, which despite your recent string of prat-ness we most certainly are. Git.