silver lining
I'm going to just flat out say the bad news first. I did not win the full ride to Northern like I have been dreaming about every single day since the beginning of November. Every candle I blew out on my cake, every shooting star, my new year's wish, they were all to get that full ride. I daydreamed about getting that call every day. But I did not get it. And it's okay.
I cried a little. My mom opened the letter and called me. Matt thought someone in my family died. But it's not that bad. I went home and read it, cried some more, displaced my anger on my mom for opening my mail, and then I opened a second letter I got. It was a small card from Mrs. Oday. Seriously, she wrote this to me: "I just wanted to express to you how impressed I was with you at this week's board meeting. Your report was professional and thorough, and you delivered it with such poise and charm. I see great things in your future!" I just started sobbing. My mom didn't understand. I think she thought it was more bad news. But I was just so touched that Mrs. Oday would write me something so nice like that just because she wanted to. I was just really happy and I felt appreciated. I think I'm always going to remember that moment, I got the worst news ever but that little card she wrote me made me feel so much better. That everything will be ok.
Oh! And then John called. He bought a Wii for Matthew and I because he found one. So I payed him back after I went to work. Then I took it to Matt's and we played until midnight. That was really nice of John. He's pretty awesome.... for a republican lol.
I wrote down all the scholarships I got so far and an estimate of what else I will get and my finances are really not as bad as I thought. Without financial aid it is 12000 a year. I got 2000 in housing, the 4000 meap money, and 1000 bond from my grandparents. I am hoping to get the 1500 NMU leadership scholarship, the 1000 subway scholarship, and the 1000 fellowship. That is 10500 right there, with NO local scholarships. If I save almost all of my money until august, I will make another 5000 dollars. So actually, I have extra money. I don't know what I was crying about lol. I'm ok.
Oh and I had such a great Valentines day with Matthew. He was so amazingly sweet. And he has continued to be that sweet ever since. So things are getting better again. I am complaining less lol. And we're relying on each other for support in so many different ways right now. We're about to goo into a completely new stage of our lives. I couldn't be more excited :)
I cried a little. My mom opened the letter and called me. Matt thought someone in my family died. But it's not that bad. I went home and read it, cried some more, displaced my anger on my mom for opening my mail, and then I opened a second letter I got. It was a small card from Mrs. Oday. Seriously, she wrote this to me: "I just wanted to express to you how impressed I was with you at this week's board meeting. Your report was professional and thorough, and you delivered it with such poise and charm. I see great things in your future!" I just started sobbing. My mom didn't understand. I think she thought it was more bad news. But I was just so touched that Mrs. Oday would write me something so nice like that just because she wanted to. I was just really happy and I felt appreciated. I think I'm always going to remember that moment, I got the worst news ever but that little card she wrote me made me feel so much better. That everything will be ok.
Oh! And then John called. He bought a Wii for Matthew and I because he found one. So I payed him back after I went to work. Then I took it to Matt's and we played until midnight. That was really nice of John. He's pretty awesome.... for a republican lol.
I wrote down all the scholarships I got so far and an estimate of what else I will get and my finances are really not as bad as I thought. Without financial aid it is 12000 a year. I got 2000 in housing, the 4000 meap money, and 1000 bond from my grandparents. I am hoping to get the 1500 NMU leadership scholarship, the 1000 subway scholarship, and the 1000 fellowship. That is 10500 right there, with NO local scholarships. If I save almost all of my money until august, I will make another 5000 dollars. So actually, I have extra money. I don't know what I was crying about lol. I'm ok.
Oh and I had such a great Valentines day with Matthew. He was so amazingly sweet. And he has continued to be that sweet ever since. So things are getting better again. I am complaining less lol. And we're relying on each other for support in so many different ways right now. We're about to goo into a completely new stage of our lives. I couldn't be more excited :)