It's not that I dont't
So, before I begin an actual update, I have a few public service announcements.
First, Megan, superfunkmobile, may I just say again that your Vulva for the Carnival rocked. I have a lovely picture which I cheekily call The Post Cataclysmic, AntiChronistic Birth of Just-in Tyme. It's very fitting.
3jane, I am very excited about Stolen. And JT was keen on taking you up on the billet offer. However, she says you are too old to sleep on a couch and we will bring an air mattress.
zakaery, it was nice to hear from you. I have been hearing the edges of disturbing rumours from J and W, specifically W, and have been wondering if you were doing ok. It sounds like it, so, *hugs*.
It's going to be such a long day today. Hovering around 11 hours, and really quite slow for me. I did bring along some work for PrideFest, and got some interesting emails in regards to Pride to deal with, and I do have a project due on Monday, but I just haven't reached the level of motivation I need to work on them. Good thing I still have about 8 hours to go. Bleh.
Must not read slash. Must not read slash. Curse you Megan and your Jon Stewart rps rec. I don't read rps normally.
I read the AKA job posting. I am not nearly qualified at all, which I knew before I opened it up, but I wish I was. I long for some kind of freedom in my work. To wear wacky jewelry and colour my hair blue, if I want to, and wear my great-grandmother's clothes. Mostly I want to contribute more to the world than my OCD, and get payed for it. I want the kind of work you can look back on and say, I made a difference. I enhanced the quality of life for a little while. I used my ethics for good instead of evil. I did not spend my life running on the corporate wheel.
I content myself by throwing myself at Pride Festival every year,(I keep typing Prude instead of Pride. What does this mean?) but I look around at the other board members and see what enriching careers/jobs they all have, and I wish I could say the same about mine.
It seems though, if I look back, that the kind of work-work I long for has, from childhood, been drilled into me as hobby-work. Real people don't do that for a living. Now, I see that people do, but my programming is wrong for it. Sadly, I am PC, not Mac and I don't even know how to start reprogramming myself. How do I get away from expectation and obligation? I want to run off to Hawaii and live on the beach and paint and swim. I am in love with JT, and I have a mortgage and cats, and a family that I love. I also have a basement full of unfinished art projects, and intentions.
I'm going to be 30 in less than a month. Sorry to be so depressing.
First, Megan, superfunkmobile, may I just say again that your Vulva for the Carnival rocked. I have a lovely picture which I cheekily call The Post Cataclysmic, AntiChronistic Birth of Just-in Tyme. It's very fitting.
3jane, I am very excited about Stolen. And JT was keen on taking you up on the billet offer. However, she says you are too old to sleep on a couch and we will bring an air mattress.
zakaery, it was nice to hear from you. I have been hearing the edges of disturbing rumours from J and W, specifically W, and have been wondering if you were doing ok. It sounds like it, so, *hugs*.
It's going to be such a long day today. Hovering around 11 hours, and really quite slow for me. I did bring along some work for PrideFest, and got some interesting emails in regards to Pride to deal with, and I do have a project due on Monday, but I just haven't reached the level of motivation I need to work on them. Good thing I still have about 8 hours to go. Bleh.
Must not read slash. Must not read slash. Curse you Megan and your Jon Stewart rps rec. I don't read rps normally.
I read the AKA job posting. I am not nearly qualified at all, which I knew before I opened it up, but I wish I was. I long for some kind of freedom in my work. To wear wacky jewelry and colour my hair blue, if I want to, and wear my great-grandmother's clothes. Mostly I want to contribute more to the world than my OCD, and get payed for it. I want the kind of work you can look back on and say, I made a difference. I enhanced the quality of life for a little while. I used my ethics for good instead of evil. I did not spend my life running on the corporate wheel.
I content myself by throwing myself at Pride Festival every year,(I keep typing Prude instead of Pride. What does this mean?) but I look around at the other board members and see what enriching careers/jobs they all have, and I wish I could say the same about mine.
It seems though, if I look back, that the kind of work-work I long for has, from childhood, been drilled into me as hobby-work. Real people don't do that for a living. Now, I see that people do, but my programming is wrong for it. Sadly, I am PC, not Mac and I don't even know how to start reprogramming myself. How do I get away from expectation and obligation? I want to run off to Hawaii and live on the beach and paint and swim. I am in love with JT, and I have a mortgage and cats, and a family that I love. I also have a basement full of unfinished art projects, and intentions.
I'm going to be 30 in less than a month. Sorry to be so depressing.