Jun 03, 2005 16:05
So looking back on what could've been isn't always sad, I learned today. Always a touch bittersweet, but it doesn't have to be depressing. Today, for example, I had a really interesting exchange with Kaitlyn, who I've had classes with since 7th grade, but never really talked to except in passing, if that. I'd always thought she was a great person, but for some reason, we never talked. I was in the gym today during Viking Day, signing other people's yearbooks while sitting out on the bleachers. I was sitting next to Kacie and Kaitlyn was sitting next to her as well. I was signing someone's yearbook, I forget whose it was, and while I was trying to think of what to write, Kaitlyn said, "Andrew Shin! We've been in classes together since 7th grade and we've never talked to each other!" "Yeah, it's a shame, really." I replied.
After that, we started talking for really the first time ever. We talked about fairly derivative stuff, like what we're doing for summer and where we're going to college, but it was nice. Referring to our conversation, Kaitlyn told Kacie something to the effect of "I always do this; I have these conversations too late." But it felt good. Better late than never, as the saying goes. What it made me realize is that, you know, we have these perceptions of being in our own little niches and when we become more integrated into our own cliques, we (well, most people) don't extend ourselves to others, even if we think highly of them. So today's conversation made me realize that I should be more outgoing at college. Not only at the beginning of the year, but throughout the whole thing. I told Kaitlyn that we should hang out this summer and she told me that we totally should. But even if we don't, I learned a valuable lesson today from our conversation. If one of us had even said something to the other years ago, we might've been pretty good friends. And like I said, it truly is a shame to miss an opportunity to have had another friend. I've gotta learn to be more outgoing.