welp...
since i've recovered now from the stupid removal of the wisdom teeth, it's been a crazy week, on tuesday i was able to go out haha, went to lunch with my brother, aww we're so cute, then later that night went to ackros. weds and thursday brought college orientation which i was in no way looking forward too. turned out to not be that bad, i made friends =] met really kick ass people, got my schedule, and yes that's right i'm excited to learn again, and no longer suffer through the dumbness of high school. a little scared i'd say, but so is everyone else...us "chemmies" as they call us met wtih the chemical engineering guy, who was pretty cool. and the science building is gorgeous and new so that's pimptastic. got to know the campus a little better and all, and got a ton of crazy paperork. once orientation was over on thursday came home and went shopping by myself. spent sixty five dollars in michael's. =] i guess i love my scrapbooking and creativeness <3 and after that i headed to britt's to see her since she was silly and hurt her back. so i visited her to make sure she was good. today was umm interesting...i visited jimmy which was cool, he's looking a lot better than i did when i got my teeth out. so that was nice to see him and i went to brit's again. she's sleeping over tonight, which is exciing =] and now on to something else...
i guess i learned something today, somethng that's always been in the back of my head, but i guess i finally did something about it now. i guess it's sad to put so much in to something and barely get anything in return. it's also sad to think that some people don't show compassion or are what i call cold hearted. but shit happens, people are shit, the world is shitty. i guess it's just something i'm learning to deal with as i get older, but i know one thing it's sad that people are the way they are. downright sad. everyone has the potential to be a good caring person but i guess it's easier just to be a fucked up dick? who knows? but what happened to the old saying, treat others like you want to be treated. with the way you treated me i guess you deserve to be treated like shit, but i don't and never will. b/c that' s just how i am. sure i have my mean days or btichyness or selfishness. but doesnt everyone once and a while? you can't be a good person all the time, but some people don't ever know how to be i guess...it's sad. i don't get the whole random hookup, hooking up with people that have a significant other, it's just plain disgusting if you ask me. what happened to loyalty? what happened to doing everything for the person you care about? i guess it's too much to ask. maybe it's a high school guy thing, the whole macho, gotta hook up with girls, gotta think with my dick, gotta be a dick deal. but what about the girls? the ones that just hook up with any guy? the one's that throw themselves at guys that have a girl? are they really that selfish? that the need to hook up with that person can't be pushed aside? maybe it's the alcohol that does it. who knows? i certainly don't at least, but i know one thing i'm disgusted with the things that are going down and i hope to god i never sink that low. i don't think i'd let myself, i wouldn't be able to do it. maybe i'm old fashioned who knows, but i'm gonna try my best to stick to the loyalty idea and find people who do the same. k bye thanks. i doubt the person i wanted to read this read this, but whatever, who cares. i have the best friend in the world and we rock hardcore. peace.
i guess i learned something today, somethng that's always been in the back of my head, but i guess i finally did something about it now. i guess it's sad to put so much in to something and barely get anything in return. it's also sad to think that some people don't show compassion or are what i call cold hearted. but shit happens, people are shit, the world is shitty. i guess it's just something i'm learning to deal with as i get older, but i know one thing it's sad that people are the way they are. downright sad. everyone has the potential to be a good caring person but i guess it's easier just to be a fucked up dick? who knows? but what happened to the old saying, treat others like you want to be treated. with the way you treated me i guess you deserve to be treated like shit, but i don't and never will. b/c that' s just how i am. sure i have my mean days or btichyness or selfishness. but doesnt everyone once and a while? you can't be a good person all the time, but some people don't ever know how to be i guess...it's sad. i don't get the whole random hookup, hooking up with people that have a significant other, it's just plain disgusting if you ask me. what happened to loyalty? what happened to doing everything for the person you care about? i guess it's too much to ask. maybe it's a high school guy thing, the whole macho, gotta hook up with girls, gotta think with my dick, gotta be a dick deal. but what about the girls? the ones that just hook up with any guy? the one's that throw themselves at guys that have a girl? are they really that selfish? that the need to hook up with that person can't be pushed aside? maybe it's the alcohol that does it. who knows? i certainly don't at least, but i know one thing i'm disgusted with the things that are going down and i hope to god i never sink that low. i don't think i'd let myself, i wouldn't be able to do it. maybe i'm old fashioned who knows, but i'm gonna try my best to stick to the loyalty idea and find people who do the same. k bye thanks. i doubt the person i wanted to read this read this, but whatever, who cares. i have the best friend in the world and we rock hardcore. peace.