gone bad (sorry houghton)
ok...here's the scoop on me.....i have stopped going to church, i work every saturday night so going to church on sundays doesn't fit into my schedual very well. i have stopped doing anything religious....praying, reading the bible, and such, just cause it makes me feel worse....if i do it is always because i am in trouble. i don't do much partying cause i work thursdays fridays and saturdays....but sometimes i do go out and drink. i called in the other day to work cause it was one of my friends b-day and we went out and had a few drinks.....i did have fun. i flirted with lotsa guys and had lotsa offers to take me home....i didn't just cause it was really early in the morning when i left and i was hanging out with my friend whos bday it was.....i do it cause i am lonely.....there is no one around to hang out with.....it is boring and i end up hating myself if i sit at home.....i don't fit in at church anymore...everyone my age is married or phil, so who does that leave...they were all his friends before.....and a few of them i really don't like cause they were key people in screwing everything up.... i am convincing myself htat i don't care what phil does anymore... i really don't...and i tell that to myself if i see him or his car around....im moving in with a chic from work....she isn't a christian....at least i don't think she is...so there it is out in the open...."good christian girl" gone bad.....