kokoro
sayonara.
I didn't expect to say goodbye as soon as fast like this.
it's so stupid to fall for you, truly.
you're annoying.
I like that, but I don't like you annoyed another girl.
maybe other girls thought you're annoying because you disturbed them
but I thought you're annoying because ..
I thought I was special for you, you did "your annoying acts" because you thought I was special.
I started to run under rain again---
and I read diary that not belongs to me in 3 years ago.
I throw that into my best friend and wanted to take that again when I can forget my ex-because that diary's contained many things about my ex,
But, thanks to you, FINALLY.
I CAN FORGET HIM,MY EX-MY FEELINGS AS -I'M HIS KOIBITO- HAHAHAHA
finally.
because I met you.
even it's hurt me a lot.
thanks.
Actually, I felt like trash.
You're started everything and ended everything, as you wanted.
The me, that have few courage to continue study at university because of many difficult things (especially because of my illness), more miserable because of this.
but after several thoughts and refresh my mind,
and watched dorama "First Kiss"
and heard "Kokoro" by Kazumasa Oda
Kokoro-Kazumasa Oda
I remembered my real courage about life and college..
And I cried because of this dorama and this song.
I like them, okay maybe the dorama is not really outstanding but somehow, I learned about illness and about life, and about people around you, especially family and true best friends that want you to live happily, and love you a lot.
You ran through the crowd of people so dazzlingly
The pouring rain stopped, and the summer sky changed
I knew from the beginning that there was no substitute for you
I'm not really sure of anything, but I know that I love you
I met the most important person to me in the world
In my life up until now, and from now on
There isn't much that I can do for you, but
I definitely won't lose my heart to anyone else
Our feelings waver now, in the summer
Parting, getting close, being in pain, getting excited
That summer, I met the most important person to me in the world
In my life up until now, and from now on
We carve out the passing of time together
And close to each other, touching one another, we live our lives now, in the moment
Hey, I was thinking that this is the first time in my life
That I've wanted to make someone happy like this
The street lights reach into the sky
And one day, they'll become one with the evening stars, I love you
I met the most important person to me in the world
In my life up until now, and from now on
We carve out the passing of time together
And close to each other, touching one another, we live our lives now, in the moment
That summer, I met the most important person to me in the world
I definitely won't lose my heart to anyone else
You ran through the crowd of people so dazzlingly
The pouring rain stopped, and the summer sky changed
credit: http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/7074/kazumasa-oda/kokoro.html
I remembered my real courage about life and college..
And I cried because of this dorama and this song.
I like them, okay maybe the dorama is not really outstanding
but somehow,
I learned about illness and about life, and about people around you, especially family and true best friends that want you to live happily, and love you a lot.
pic credit: d-addicts.com
Papa, I love you so much,
I remembered you sacrifice many things for me...sacrifice your life...you did almost everything for me..but I hurt you...gomen papa...I want you to know in this hard situation actually I always want to support you, but somehow it's diffiicult to be a good daughter...gomenne papa..
From now on, I want to give you my best love papa..I don't want to be late, before we're seperated..
pic credit: lautanindonesia.com
Many people support and love me, I love to live with them...live together
zdoramaagain.blogspot.com
I can be myself, do anything with them...people that truly love and support me...
zdoramaagain.blogspot.com
Why did? I always want to live with the person I loved (that already has a new life), but I didn't see my family and my best friends that truly support and love me? Why did I didn't try to be a good member in my family and being a good friend for my best friend? Why did I'm busy with my own desire and din't care with them and didn't try best to live as they wish-because their wishes are for my happiness.
GAAAGH.
From "First Kiss", I know I'm busy to cover myself from many things with my illness.
I said "I couldn't" because I'm sick, yea perhaps it's true but the real problem for me is my own fears.
pic credit: wienykashiwabara.multiply.com
I wish I oould live happily until the end with all of the people I loved.
*Btw the guy (left) from "First Kiss" is melted me a lot. I like him, seriously, his looks and character are so charrrrrrrmmmmm and makes me feel warm-feel like a lover even only watched him from TV HAHAHAHA*
DAKEDO,
To reach my dreams, I must sacrifice many things, right ne?????
I must be a stronger girl, beat MY FEARS, ONE OF THEM: my illness.
and my short-time goal:
I WANT TO BE A BACHELOR FROM MY UNIVERSITY, OKAAAAAY.
My bestie said to me:
"Broken heart? Make that as your 'study booster'. Take revenge for him and show the you're a great girl and It's wrong to dump you."
HEAAAA, SEVERAL TIMES REJECTED THIS IDEA BECAUSE; "I'M SICK. I DON'T WANT TO PUSH MYSELF TOO MUCH AND SUFFER."
BUT IT'S WRONG. MY STUDY NOW IS HORRIBLE AND I KNOW I DIDN'T DO MY BEST AND STILL HAVE MANY POWERS YEA TO GIVE MY BEST . I BELIEVE, I CAN LIVE MY LIFE AS MY BELIEF, BECAUSE EVERTHING I DO, THERE'RE PEOPLE THAT ALWAYS BELIEVE IN ME.
FINAL EXAM IS ABOUT 2 WEEKS AGAIN, SO I'LL DRUNK---YEA
DRUNK WITH MY LESSONS
BEING A "BROKEN HEART STUDENT? YOU'RE WRONG; I'M A SUPER STRONG ROCKET LEARNER MAAAN!!!"
pic credit: kaskus.us
MY LOVERS, MY HERO.
Thanks Michelle; for lent me "First Kiss", brought me into J-world, Livejournal, and everything.
Perhaps I'll be off from LJ in several days forward. But I love to share my thoughts here and feel more relieved :)
I didn't expect to say goodbye as soon as fast like this.
it's so stupid to fall for you, truly.
you're annoying.
I like that, but I don't like you annoyed another girl.
maybe other girls thought you're annoying because you disturbed them
but I thought you're annoying because ..
I thought I was special for you, you did "your annoying acts" because you thought I was special.
I started to run under rain again---
and I read diary that not belongs to me in 3 years ago.
I throw that into my best friend and wanted to take that again when I can forget my ex-because that diary's contained many things about my ex,
But, thanks to you, FINALLY.
I CAN FORGET HIM,MY EX-MY FEELINGS AS -I'M HIS KOIBITO- HAHAHAHA
finally.
because I met you.
even it's hurt me a lot.
thanks.
Actually, I felt like trash.
You're started everything and ended everything, as you wanted.
The me, that have few courage to continue study at university because of many difficult things (especially because of my illness), more miserable because of this.
but after several thoughts and refresh my mind,
and watched dorama "First Kiss"
and heard "Kokoro" by Kazumasa Oda
Kokoro-Kazumasa Oda
I remembered my real courage about life and college..
And I cried because of this dorama and this song.
I like them, okay maybe the dorama is not really outstanding but somehow, I learned about illness and about life, and about people around you, especially family and true best friends that want you to live happily, and love you a lot.
You ran through the crowd of people so dazzlingly
The pouring rain stopped, and the summer sky changed
I knew from the beginning that there was no substitute for you
I'm not really sure of anything, but I know that I love you
I met the most important person to me in the world
In my life up until now, and from now on
There isn't much that I can do for you, but
I definitely won't lose my heart to anyone else
Our feelings waver now, in the summer
Parting, getting close, being in pain, getting excited
That summer, I met the most important person to me in the world
In my life up until now, and from now on
We carve out the passing of time together
And close to each other, touching one another, we live our lives now, in the moment
Hey, I was thinking that this is the first time in my life
That I've wanted to make someone happy like this
The street lights reach into the sky
And one day, they'll become one with the evening stars, I love you
I met the most important person to me in the world
In my life up until now, and from now on
We carve out the passing of time together
And close to each other, touching one another, we live our lives now, in the moment
That summer, I met the most important person to me in the world
I definitely won't lose my heart to anyone else
You ran through the crowd of people so dazzlingly
The pouring rain stopped, and the summer sky changed
credit: http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/7074/kazumasa-oda/kokoro.html
I remembered my real courage about life and college..
And I cried because of this dorama and this song.
I like them, okay maybe the dorama is not really outstanding
but somehow,
I learned about illness and about life, and about people around you, especially family and true best friends that want you to live happily, and love you a lot.
pic credit: d-addicts.com
Papa, I love you so much,
I remembered you sacrifice many things for me...sacrifice your life...you did almost everything for me..but I hurt you...gomen papa...I want you to know in this hard situation actually I always want to support you, but somehow it's diffiicult to be a good daughter...gomenne papa..
From now on, I want to give you my best love papa..I don't want to be late, before we're seperated..
pic credit: lautanindonesia.com
Many people support and love me, I love to live with them...live together
zdoramaagain.blogspot.com
I can be myself, do anything with them...people that truly love and support me...
zdoramaagain.blogspot.com
Why did? I always want to live with the person I loved (that already has a new life), but I didn't see my family and my best friends that truly support and love me? Why did I didn't try to be a good member in my family and being a good friend for my best friend? Why did I'm busy with my own desire and din't care with them and didn't try best to live as they wish-because their wishes are for my happiness.
GAAAGH.
From "First Kiss", I know I'm busy to cover myself from many things with my illness.
I said "I couldn't" because I'm sick, yea perhaps it's true but the real problem for me is my own fears.
pic credit: wienykashiwabara.multiply.com
I wish I oould live happily until the end with all of the people I loved.
*Btw the guy (left) from "First Kiss" is melted me a lot. I like him, seriously, his looks and character are so charrrrrrrmmmmm and makes me feel warm-feel like a lover even only watched him from TV HAHAHAHA*
DAKEDO,
To reach my dreams, I must sacrifice many things, right ne?????
I must be a stronger girl, beat MY FEARS, ONE OF THEM: my illness.
and my short-time goal:
I WANT TO BE A BACHELOR FROM MY UNIVERSITY, OKAAAAAY.
My bestie said to me:
"Broken heart? Make that as your 'study booster'. Take revenge for him and show the you're a great girl and It's wrong to dump you."
HEAAAA, SEVERAL TIMES REJECTED THIS IDEA BECAUSE; "I'M SICK. I DON'T WANT TO PUSH MYSELF TOO MUCH AND SUFFER."
BUT IT'S WRONG. MY STUDY NOW IS HORRIBLE AND I KNOW I DIDN'T DO MY BEST AND STILL HAVE MANY POWERS YEA TO GIVE MY BEST . I BELIEVE, I CAN LIVE MY LIFE AS MY BELIEF, BECAUSE EVERTHING I DO, THERE'RE PEOPLE THAT ALWAYS BELIEVE IN ME.
FINAL EXAM IS ABOUT 2 WEEKS AGAIN, SO I'LL DRUNK---YEA
DRUNK WITH MY LESSONS
BEING A "BROKEN HEART STUDENT? YOU'RE WRONG; I'M A SUPER STRONG ROCKET LEARNER MAAAN!!!"
pic credit: kaskus.us
MY LOVERS, MY HERO.
Thanks Michelle; for lent me "First Kiss", brought me into J-world, Livejournal, and everything.
Perhaps I'll be off from LJ in several days forward. But I love to share my thoughts here and feel more relieved :)