i have suffered but my friends say i have learned from it

[summersette]

Life is fan-fucking-tastic. Finally I nailed my acting class once and for all, so much so that my acting teacher spoke to the chair of the acting department about it, my speech teacher. Now I have the two teachers with the most power wanting me here. I think I'm set, I don't think they'll kick me out after this. It feels so good to feel strongly about knowing this. I love the strength it's giving me in my work.

We share our scenes on Thursday and Friday, and then evaluations are Monday, so that's when we find out where I stand, I guess.

Wish me luck! I love you all, life is going wonderfully for me. Kyle is incredible, such a dream come true. I'm so happy with him.

I'm writing a book. Well, at least, I think I'm writing a book. So far I'm only on the second page. But I'm trying :)

it's easier to let go
than to try and stop the flow
this flow that i have yet to judge
so whatever erupts
is my volcano
letting everything go seems
possible
plausible
impractical
to my inproportionate thoughts
they aren't ready to escape the hole
of my mind
which is fine-
if i stop forcing the lies to be the truth
if i can just see you
for real
once in my life
if i can just open my eyes...