Back from Down Under!
Came back from Australia last Sunday, called in sick on Monday due to jetlag and slept until 1pm that day. Marvelous holiday spent with my family. Cairns is quite the tropical paradise which is reminiscent of Hawaii and other Pacific Islands close by. However, heading south means just a tad bit of drop in the temperature. I think Sydney's weather was quite tolerable, almost like LA or SF but not quite so.
Another highlight on the trip was being able to spend time with my nieces and nephew. I find the kids to be such an amazing bunch...very Australian in so many ways (not just the accent). My sister wants me to move there and had a little pep talk with me on how I need to move on. Yes, I have been somewhat stuck in a rot and I have let myself get there because I am not that motivated or driven to do anything. I have lost a lot of faith that I could move on after the death of my beloved mother. Life still goes on and I still breathe in and out. It does get a bit easier as the days go by and when everything seems to fade away bit by bit over time. That's just my experience so far. My coping mechanism is to stuff my pain for now and deal with it later but I'm afraid that is not the most healthiest thing to do.
Anyways, my sister wants to know about my future plans. I was just actually planning to do nothing. She clearly expressed her desire for me to move to Australia. In that way, I could be around when the kids grow up and stuff. However, I have my own agenda to follow. It's been in my heart to seek employment in the international sector. The United Nations has announced that they will be conducting entrance exams for those who are interested in UN employment. I submitted an application yesterday and I do hope that I get selected. It would be a chance of a lifetime! I have laid out plans B, C & D just in case the UN plans do not work out. The exams will be in February 2008 so I need to actually prepare for it soon! I should know by the end of the month if I get selected to take the exam in February.
As for my plans, they are as follows:
Plan B: I register for the Consular exam track under Foreign Service (Department of State).
Plan C: I seek out a job in London for a whole year and try to save up some money for Columbia University in New York. I need to save $250 per month to be able to afford Columbia.
Plan D: I move to Australia and work there, build a life and be happy to be surrounded by family.
Plan E: I have not thought of one yet. Maybe find a rich guy to marry and be done with everything.
Another thing, that's been on mind as well is that I have this untouchable guy in my mind that I really have no business with. That's just it. He's untouchable because we're not in the same league. I find that very frustrating to the point of just letting go and not caring about anything. How frustrating it is to be in this predicament. I think I will give it a rest and just forget about him. I find it silly actually because we're not in the same page. We're too different! Let me just move on with my life as if he does not exist.
Well, this is my update for now. I know it has been awhile since I've recorded some events of my life on this page. A plus!
Another highlight on the trip was being able to spend time with my nieces and nephew. I find the kids to be such an amazing bunch...very Australian in so many ways (not just the accent). My sister wants me to move there and had a little pep talk with me on how I need to move on. Yes, I have been somewhat stuck in a rot and I have let myself get there because I am not that motivated or driven to do anything. I have lost a lot of faith that I could move on after the death of my beloved mother. Life still goes on and I still breathe in and out. It does get a bit easier as the days go by and when everything seems to fade away bit by bit over time. That's just my experience so far. My coping mechanism is to stuff my pain for now and deal with it later but I'm afraid that is not the most healthiest thing to do.
Anyways, my sister wants to know about my future plans. I was just actually planning to do nothing. She clearly expressed her desire for me to move to Australia. In that way, I could be around when the kids grow up and stuff. However, I have my own agenda to follow. It's been in my heart to seek employment in the international sector. The United Nations has announced that they will be conducting entrance exams for those who are interested in UN employment. I submitted an application yesterday and I do hope that I get selected. It would be a chance of a lifetime! I have laid out plans B, C & D just in case the UN plans do not work out. The exams will be in February 2008 so I need to actually prepare for it soon! I should know by the end of the month if I get selected to take the exam in February.
As for my plans, they are as follows:
Plan B: I register for the Consular exam track under Foreign Service (Department of State).
Plan C: I seek out a job in London for a whole year and try to save up some money for Columbia University in New York. I need to save $250 per month to be able to afford Columbia.
Plan D: I move to Australia and work there, build a life and be happy to be surrounded by family.
Plan E: I have not thought of one yet. Maybe find a rich guy to marry and be done with everything.
Another thing, that's been on mind as well is that I have this untouchable guy in my mind that I really have no business with. That's just it. He's untouchable because we're not in the same league. I find that very frustrating to the point of just letting go and not caring about anything. How frustrating it is to be in this predicament. I think I will give it a rest and just forget about him. I find it silly actually because we're not in the same page. We're too different! Let me just move on with my life as if he does not exist.
Well, this is my update for now. I know it has been awhile since I've recorded some events of my life on this page. A plus!