Thoughts
Been awhile since the last time I posted here. Nothing new has really happened. My dad is going to Australia and he has been gone from the US for almost a year (by next month). I feel alone without my family. Of course, I have my friends but coming from a close-knit family, one finds it difficult to somehow feel that void.
I miss my mom everyday and I wish I could just pick up the phone and chat with her for awhile. From time to time, I still hurt and then I cry myself to sleep. Sometimes I just wish that I would not wake up anymore. I am still hurting after a year. There are times I find it difficult to talk about my mom without crying and there are times that I am okay about it. However, for the most part, I hurt. I try to find things to do to sweep my pain under the rug but it's hard. So I wake up to another day and hope that maybe I'll be okay. Even now, I feel like crying. I also have an upset stomach and am feeling a bit nauseated. I think it's from the car ride today when my lovely roommate picked me up from work today. I don't know...or maybe I am making myself sick.
Anyways...
I miss my mom everyday and I wish I could just pick up the phone and chat with her for awhile. From time to time, I still hurt and then I cry myself to sleep. Sometimes I just wish that I would not wake up anymore. I am still hurting after a year. There are times I find it difficult to talk about my mom without crying and there are times that I am okay about it. However, for the most part, I hurt. I try to find things to do to sweep my pain under the rug but it's hard. So I wake up to another day and hope that maybe I'll be okay. Even now, I feel like crying. I also have an upset stomach and am feeling a bit nauseated. I think it's from the car ride today when my lovely roommate picked me up from work today. I don't know...or maybe I am making myself sick.
Anyways...