oh, blaaahhh
from now until thanksgiving= endless stream of stress. when one midterm ends another term paper begins (or another 15 page paper... you know. it's all the same...) there is no time to breathe.
nothing has really been going on. i don't know why i'm updating except for the sake of it.
except.... jess might move out and then i'd be alone and i am really upset about it but i suppose there is nothing i can do. she has crohn's disease, which is an intestinal problem, and it was okay in the beginning of the year but she is starting to wake up a lot during the night and sleep all day and health services has told her that she should be in a single so she can have her own sleep patterns and feel more comfortable not being sick with someone in the room all the time. i guess i understand because when i was nauseous in the first week of school i really just wanted to curl up on my bed and i wanted jess and jordan to go away so i could call and cry to my mom on the phone. she told me that she just feels uncomfortable, and wants to be alone when she doesn't feel well, and it's not my fault or about me personally but it's just how she feels.
it still makes me sad and feel like... what did i do? if she moves out, then i'm alone in a triple and it seems like i'm a horrible person to live with or something. i mean, jordan moved upstairs because one of the girls there moved out, and she moved in with her remaining roommates because they are close friends, which had nothing to do with me or jess.... and jess would move out because of a sickness... so neither (i think) is because of me, but i would still feel that way.
i wonder if any one of my friends who is in a cramped triple would want to move in with me... but everyone seems happy where they are.
sigh.
rich is starting KBA with me today. that will be fun.