*is comforted*
today, i talked to the first conn freshman so far who has said "i'm scared" instead of "OMG OMG SO EXCITED AHH"
and i felt a lot better.
i think part of the reason ive been feeling so scared is because i look around on facebook and everyone is in this crazed state of excitement, and i'm feeling nervous, and i feel like i will be completely alone on my island of homesickness and confusion.
so now i know at least im not alone! there is ONE person who feels like me!
she's in freeman with caitlin, and i told her to look for her . and we decided that the three of us should run together (as long as caity is up for that, of course.)
last thing about this girl. she said to me (something like this): "i've been looking on your facebook, and your life looks so interesting!" i've never heard that from anyone before, but it made me feel very grateful and happy. she was going on about how her family never takes vacations, and how she thinks all my backpacking stuff and whatever is awesome... and i was like, geez, i'm happy to be a sugg! because if my dad wasn't my dad i would never be in the crazy wilderness seeing beautiful views that only about 5% of people who visit national parks ever see. and if my mom wasn't my mom i wouldn't have done all of the youth group rosie's place/west end stuff, or been in yla (i wouldn't have heard of yla), or been to honduras 3 times. and if my sister wasn't my sister... well. then i'd be lonely. anyway, thank god for my family, or i'd be a totally different person. (okay, that was about the most obvious statement ever.)
ahhh i'm going to miss them.
also, i found another girl on facebook whose interests are environmentalism and hiking and the beatles, and mulan and the princess bride are in her favorite movies. haha. she seems so sweet. i hope i meet her and we can be friends (if she's as nice in real life as on facebook.)
i still wish i could room with zeinu or lanu or someone who i would be completely comfortable with as a witness to daily routines such as changing, brushing hair, and waking up looking like a piece of shit. erg... i am so uneasy about these roommates of mine. or one of them, at least. on the 2010 group discussion board, she said something about bringing a certain drug to school (which i have never heard of), and that she was planning on bringing some but then she talked to another girl who said she'd bring it instead. or something like that.... whatever she said, there is a potential for nasty smoke smells in my room. harumph.
mmm i love the fact that it's late and i don't need to care because i'm noooot woooorking tomorrowwwwww
yeeeeees
although i had a very good day with the boys today. ryan may actually like me. when i told him i had to leave he said in a whiny voice "right nooow?" ...so it was still whining, but it was good, i-love-katie whining. i feel that we are moving in the right direction!
:-)
and i felt a lot better.
i think part of the reason ive been feeling so scared is because i look around on facebook and everyone is in this crazed state of excitement, and i'm feeling nervous, and i feel like i will be completely alone on my island of homesickness and confusion.
so now i know at least im not alone! there is ONE person who feels like me!
she's in freeman with caitlin, and i told her to look for her . and we decided that the three of us should run together (as long as caity is up for that, of course.)
last thing about this girl. she said to me (something like this): "i've been looking on your facebook, and your life looks so interesting!" i've never heard that from anyone before, but it made me feel very grateful and happy. she was going on about how her family never takes vacations, and how she thinks all my backpacking stuff and whatever is awesome... and i was like, geez, i'm happy to be a sugg! because if my dad wasn't my dad i would never be in the crazy wilderness seeing beautiful views that only about 5% of people who visit national parks ever see. and if my mom wasn't my mom i wouldn't have done all of the youth group rosie's place/west end stuff, or been in yla (i wouldn't have heard of yla), or been to honduras 3 times. and if my sister wasn't my sister... well. then i'd be lonely. anyway, thank god for my family, or i'd be a totally different person. (okay, that was about the most obvious statement ever.)
ahhh i'm going to miss them.
also, i found another girl on facebook whose interests are environmentalism and hiking and the beatles, and mulan and the princess bride are in her favorite movies. haha. she seems so sweet. i hope i meet her and we can be friends (if she's as nice in real life as on facebook.)
i still wish i could room with zeinu or lanu or someone who i would be completely comfortable with as a witness to daily routines such as changing, brushing hair, and waking up looking like a piece of shit. erg... i am so uneasy about these roommates of mine. or one of them, at least. on the 2010 group discussion board, she said something about bringing a certain drug to school (which i have never heard of), and that she was planning on bringing some but then she talked to another girl who said she'd bring it instead. or something like that.... whatever she said, there is a potential for nasty smoke smells in my room. harumph.
mmm i love the fact that it's late and i don't need to care because i'm noooot woooorking tomorrowwwwww
yeeeeees
although i had a very good day with the boys today. ryan may actually like me. when i told him i had to leave he said in a whiny voice "right nooow?" ...so it was still whining, but it was good, i-love-katie whining. i feel that we are moving in the right direction!
:-)