leaving
well i did it, i left. i moved to glenmont new york.. & it was the most amazing hell of my life.. lol i loved the area but i missed this little town. i missed my friends and my secrets and just my "me" i lost myself in new york and although it wasn't all bad i was just super unhappy. i lost 30 lbs .. YAY. but i gained some back already.. i worked @ cvs & loved my night shift supervisor she rocked. we had so much fun :) but my aunt and i didnt get along well so i just had to come home. i hated not being me and truth be told i missed my family so so so much, especially my mommy cuz she's my rock :] but it really pulled me out of the closet because they more i had to hide my "gay" ness the more i wanted to be openly gay. plus i couldn't hookah LAME.
so then i came home.. and joshua told me he was for sure going to salt lake for, ever. well so me him and logan drove there.. yes drove across teh country! i went totally broke but it was so worth it. we made friends in fucking nebraska "the good life" more like the asshole of the u.s. ... lol :) it was stilll soo funn. & then i had my first plane ride ever!! so sickening but cool that i finally got to! :P
then samik and i drove to washington d.c. to visit her girlfriend sade. who is sweet as shit! it was so fun.. i love dc & seeing it on my own as an adult as compared to a child was so much more enjoyable! i just love big citties and road trips :]
then marycait went home :( :( i was so fucking depressed without josh and mary it wasnt even funny. i hated everything so much.
after thattt. one night josh calls me and says i need to come home this weekend, book a flight. so in 2 days i flew to denver co to pick his ass up well he picked me up. marycait was actually home in ohio for her gmas funeral so we were all gonna hang but flights got fucked cuz of the weather.. lol so josh and i.. mainly I drove 25 hours through a blizzard in iowa home to ohio :] :] where i swore off road trips till the new year..
well lone and behold i'd choose to go pick SADE, yes sami's ex up from d.c. we started being good friends, and then lovers and then now we're nothing but another trip to d.c. is always a fun time :) :) i enjoyed myself even if sade was a real asshole to me that day and the rest of the 2 weeks of hell she put me through to follow. idk who she thought i was but apparently i was a totally different person in real life? i don't see it. i thought i'm me all the time. i think it has to do wth my appearance because she alwasy tried to change it.. idk :[
now i'm just here. i work at office max. marycait is back :) and she lives with tee.. ben and josh are together.. weird as fuck let me tell you & they want to join the airforce.. weird also. they're just awkward but they are happy so i'm happy for htem :]
idk where my life will take me but i love it.
and i loe that i can be openly gayy & not worry about otehrs opinions.
i for once or twice in my life am so happy with myself, and so confident too.
oh i got rid of the buickkk and haavee the HONDAA now bitches :)
byeee!
so then i came home.. and joshua told me he was for sure going to salt lake for, ever. well so me him and logan drove there.. yes drove across teh country! i went totally broke but it was so worth it. we made friends in fucking nebraska "the good life" more like the asshole of the u.s. ... lol :) it was stilll soo funn. & then i had my first plane ride ever!! so sickening but cool that i finally got to! :P
then samik and i drove to washington d.c. to visit her girlfriend sade. who is sweet as shit! it was so fun.. i love dc & seeing it on my own as an adult as compared to a child was so much more enjoyable! i just love big citties and road trips :]
then marycait went home :( :( i was so fucking depressed without josh and mary it wasnt even funny. i hated everything so much.
after thattt. one night josh calls me and says i need to come home this weekend, book a flight. so in 2 days i flew to denver co to pick his ass up well he picked me up. marycait was actually home in ohio for her gmas funeral so we were all gonna hang but flights got fucked cuz of the weather.. lol so josh and i.. mainly I drove 25 hours through a blizzard in iowa home to ohio :] :] where i swore off road trips till the new year..
well lone and behold i'd choose to go pick SADE, yes sami's ex up from d.c. we started being good friends, and then lovers and then now we're nothing but another trip to d.c. is always a fun time :) :) i enjoyed myself even if sade was a real asshole to me that day and the rest of the 2 weeks of hell she put me through to follow. idk who she thought i was but apparently i was a totally different person in real life? i don't see it. i thought i'm me all the time. i think it has to do wth my appearance because she alwasy tried to change it.. idk :[
now i'm just here. i work at office max. marycait is back :) and she lives with tee.. ben and josh are together.. weird as fuck let me tell you & they want to join the airforce.. weird also. they're just awkward but they are happy so i'm happy for htem :]
idk where my life will take me but i love it.
and i loe that i can be openly gayy & not worry about otehrs opinions.
i for once or twice in my life am so happy with myself, and so confident too.
oh i got rid of the buickkk and haavee the HONDAA now bitches :)
byeee!