Week from Hell
This week has really just been the week from hell, starting from last Friday morning. It's really just been one thing after another. *sigh* So glad it's friday, so glad it's Lindsay's birthday party tonight. I need to get out and stop thinking about life for a minute.
So more about Matt -
http://www.ksl.com/index.php?nid=148&sid=4721708
There is the news story. Yesterday I got back from lunch and I had just heated up my soup and sat down to eat it. I unlocked my computer and the chat window was still pulled up. I caught a glipse of something at the very top, almost ready to scroll out of sight and it was Brandon, talking about his friend that got shot. I saw "Matt" and my first thought was this raver we knew way back in the day, my second more heart wrenching thought was Candice & Matt. My heart started racing and I was thinking, "No way can it be Matt, no way, this isn't happening! Matt got shot? What the fuck!?" There was a link to the news story and I clicked it and at this point it's all kind of blurry, it happened really fast. I think I saw Brandon saying my name in the chat and I knew right away that it was actually Matt. I didnt even read the news story, I couldn't consentrate, but I saw the picture and I knew it was Matt & Candice's house.
I started shaking uncontrollably. I grabbed my cell phone to find candices number to call her but I was shaking so bad and I couldn't think straight and couldnt figure out what the hell I was doing to find her number in my phone. I picked up my work phone to call my mom but my hands were shaking so bad that I dialed the wrong number. I slammed the phone down and got up and litterally ran as fast as I could to the other receptionist desk to talk to Kaily. I sat on her desk and was hyperventilating, I couldn't breath or talk. I showed her my hands and how badly I was shaking and she kept asking me what was wrong. I finally was able to say that someone had broken into my cousin's house this morning and shot her fiance 4 times. I started bawling and she hugged me. Our safety manager was also up front when I told her. They made me sit down and they started asking me questions, I said I didn't really know anything and I just needed to calm down. I remembered it was on KSL.com so I pulled up the story, as I read what happened I just started crying more.
I told them I needed to call my cousin, at this point a few other people had come out of their office to see what was going on. One guy from our corporate office in Logan was here and he was very helpful. He took me in the confrence room and helped me call my cousin. She started crying as soon as I told her it was me, she told me Matt was in surgery and had been for about 2 1/2 hours so far. I asked her if he was going to be ok, and she said that when the ambulance got there he was awake and talking so that was good. I told her I wanted to come to the hospital after work, and I would call her when I got off.
Mark & Chris came over to my desk and asked if I needed to leave, and I told them I really wanted to but I felt bad taking more time off (I just took wednesday off to stay home with sick Marley). They basically said I should go, but they wanted me to calm down first because it was unsafe to drive while I was so shooken up. So I tried to eat my lunch but I wasn't hungry anymore. I kept thinking about the fact that I've been in that house many times, I've had Marley over there. Many people I love and care about are frequently there, DJ goes there for lunch sometimes, Brandon goes there on lunch sometimes, Mikey & Nick are there often and mikey has had his kids over there too! Not to mention Candice LIVES there. I felt sick to my stomach, I had a burning pain in my stomach it almost felt like an ulcer pain. This is obviously hitting way too fucking close to home.
I called my mom and told her what happened, I also called DJ to let him know what happened and let him know I was going to the hospital. Kaily told me she would watch the phones for the last hour of work for me so that I could go, she is such a sweetheart. She just barely had to do that the day before for me. I felt bad leaving work, but I just needed to be there with Candice.
When I got to the hospital Candice and everyone were just walking out of the surgery waiting room, Matt had been moved to ICU and we could go see him now. As soon as Candice saw me she gave me a huge hug and just held me really tight for a long time and started crying. She said, "I'm so glad you're here". I'm really happy that I was able to go up there with her. Mikey, Laura, Nick & my aunt Tina were all there and Matt's dad was also there. We went to the 2nd floor and the lady explained that we could only go 2 people at a time in the room, Candice and Matts dad went first.
I was able to sit and talk with Tina for a while and she told me that she was on her way to their house when it happened, she was meeting candice there on her lunch which was at 11. This all happened at 10:23, if it had happened just 30 minutes later, Candice and my aunt would have been there. When my aunt did arrive, she saw cops and the news. When Candice got there, they asked her if she lived there and she said yes with her fiance. The cop asked her what her fiance's name was and she told him and then he told her what happened to Matt. She had a panic attack because she has bad anxiety. =(
When it was my turn to go in the room Candice gave me a big hug again and just started crying and again told me she was so glad that I was there. We both just sat and held each other and cried. I guess when my aunt was in the room she asked Matt if he knew who did it and he shook his head yes. He can't talk because he has a tube down his throat to help him breath right now, and it won't be taken out until after his next surgery on Saturday. When I was in there he was completely out of it though, they had to up his morphine shot because he kept trying to wake up and he really just needed to be knocked out right then. The nurses came in to get Matt ready to be taken for a CAT scan to make sure his first surgery went well so I said goodbye, I wanted to try and beat traffic since it was 4 and I was clear on the other side of the valley.
Last night I went and hung out with Candice when she went over to Mikeys house. I guess she went home to get her dog and there was blood all over her apartment, the back sliding glass door had been shot out and was shattered completely. She said they stole her laptop, Matt's watch & engagement ring and the PS3.
I asked her how the CAT scan went and she told me she didn't stay long enough to find out, so she called the nurses. Apparently they found a bullet fragment in his hip and they have to try and get that out in surgery on Saturday. The nurse also said that Matt was coherent and had been writting on a note pad asking for Candice, he was really worried about her so she decided to go back to the hospital.
This morning I talked to her, and I am just going to copy and paste our conversation:
Candice says: He is doing better, he was all hyped up last night and didn't want me to leave
Candice says: I came to my moms and slept for a bit, going back up there soon
Candice says: He was writting a lot!
Summer says: what was he saying?!
Summer says: did he tell you who did it?
Candice says: well he said when they came in, they put a pillowcase over his head... and pistol whipped him...told him today was his day to die
Candice says: they took his phone so he couldn't call for help
Candice says: luckily our neighbor was downstairs and Matt yelled for him and he came otherwise he would have bled to death
Summer says: jesus
Summer says: that's so scary
Summer says: so when did they actually shoot him?
Candice says: they tried to when they first came in, I'm still not clear on that but it sounded like they did it right when they came in the door
Summer says: and then they put the pillow case on his head?
Candice says: yeah, I think so he was writting all sloppy and fast and crazy...
Fuckin crazy. My mom was saying this morning that she bet they didn't go there with the intent to kill him, they probably just went over there to rob him and then something went wrong and they ended up shooting him. Heh.. but apparently they were there to kill Matt yesterday. I'm still having a really really hard time with that. It's terrifying and sickening. The news said they found 3 bags of weed at the scene, so they dropped all the drugs they went there to kill Matt for. I cannot believe someone would murder another human for fuckin weed. It's truly horrifying.
I guess this entry is long enough now. I feel sick again, blah.
So more about Matt -
http://www.ksl.com/index.php?nid=148&sid=4721708
There is the news story. Yesterday I got back from lunch and I had just heated up my soup and sat down to eat it. I unlocked my computer and the chat window was still pulled up. I caught a glipse of something at the very top, almost ready to scroll out of sight and it was Brandon, talking about his friend that got shot. I saw "Matt" and my first thought was this raver we knew way back in the day, my second more heart wrenching thought was Candice & Matt. My heart started racing and I was thinking, "No way can it be Matt, no way, this isn't happening! Matt got shot? What the fuck!?" There was a link to the news story and I clicked it and at this point it's all kind of blurry, it happened really fast. I think I saw Brandon saying my name in the chat and I knew right away that it was actually Matt. I didnt even read the news story, I couldn't consentrate, but I saw the picture and I knew it was Matt & Candice's house.
I started shaking uncontrollably. I grabbed my cell phone to find candices number to call her but I was shaking so bad and I couldn't think straight and couldnt figure out what the hell I was doing to find her number in my phone. I picked up my work phone to call my mom but my hands were shaking so bad that I dialed the wrong number. I slammed the phone down and got up and litterally ran as fast as I could to the other receptionist desk to talk to Kaily. I sat on her desk and was hyperventilating, I couldn't breath or talk. I showed her my hands and how badly I was shaking and she kept asking me what was wrong. I finally was able to say that someone had broken into my cousin's house this morning and shot her fiance 4 times. I started bawling and she hugged me. Our safety manager was also up front when I told her. They made me sit down and they started asking me questions, I said I didn't really know anything and I just needed to calm down. I remembered it was on KSL.com so I pulled up the story, as I read what happened I just started crying more.
I told them I needed to call my cousin, at this point a few other people had come out of their office to see what was going on. One guy from our corporate office in Logan was here and he was very helpful. He took me in the confrence room and helped me call my cousin. She started crying as soon as I told her it was me, she told me Matt was in surgery and had been for about 2 1/2 hours so far. I asked her if he was going to be ok, and she said that when the ambulance got there he was awake and talking so that was good. I told her I wanted to come to the hospital after work, and I would call her when I got off.
Mark & Chris came over to my desk and asked if I needed to leave, and I told them I really wanted to but I felt bad taking more time off (I just took wednesday off to stay home with sick Marley). They basically said I should go, but they wanted me to calm down first because it was unsafe to drive while I was so shooken up. So I tried to eat my lunch but I wasn't hungry anymore. I kept thinking about the fact that I've been in that house many times, I've had Marley over there. Many people I love and care about are frequently there, DJ goes there for lunch sometimes, Brandon goes there on lunch sometimes, Mikey & Nick are there often and mikey has had his kids over there too! Not to mention Candice LIVES there. I felt sick to my stomach, I had a burning pain in my stomach it almost felt like an ulcer pain. This is obviously hitting way too fucking close to home.
I called my mom and told her what happened, I also called DJ to let him know what happened and let him know I was going to the hospital. Kaily told me she would watch the phones for the last hour of work for me so that I could go, she is such a sweetheart. She just barely had to do that the day before for me. I felt bad leaving work, but I just needed to be there with Candice.
When I got to the hospital Candice and everyone were just walking out of the surgery waiting room, Matt had been moved to ICU and we could go see him now. As soon as Candice saw me she gave me a huge hug and just held me really tight for a long time and started crying. She said, "I'm so glad you're here". I'm really happy that I was able to go up there with her. Mikey, Laura, Nick & my aunt Tina were all there and Matt's dad was also there. We went to the 2nd floor and the lady explained that we could only go 2 people at a time in the room, Candice and Matts dad went first.
I was able to sit and talk with Tina for a while and she told me that she was on her way to their house when it happened, she was meeting candice there on her lunch which was at 11. This all happened at 10:23, if it had happened just 30 minutes later, Candice and my aunt would have been there. When my aunt did arrive, she saw cops and the news. When Candice got there, they asked her if she lived there and she said yes with her fiance. The cop asked her what her fiance's name was and she told him and then he told her what happened to Matt. She had a panic attack because she has bad anxiety. =(
When it was my turn to go in the room Candice gave me a big hug again and just started crying and again told me she was so glad that I was there. We both just sat and held each other and cried. I guess when my aunt was in the room she asked Matt if he knew who did it and he shook his head yes. He can't talk because he has a tube down his throat to help him breath right now, and it won't be taken out until after his next surgery on Saturday. When I was in there he was completely out of it though, they had to up his morphine shot because he kept trying to wake up and he really just needed to be knocked out right then. The nurses came in to get Matt ready to be taken for a CAT scan to make sure his first surgery went well so I said goodbye, I wanted to try and beat traffic since it was 4 and I was clear on the other side of the valley.
Last night I went and hung out with Candice when she went over to Mikeys house. I guess she went home to get her dog and there was blood all over her apartment, the back sliding glass door had been shot out and was shattered completely. She said they stole her laptop, Matt's watch & engagement ring and the PS3.
I asked her how the CAT scan went and she told me she didn't stay long enough to find out, so she called the nurses. Apparently they found a bullet fragment in his hip and they have to try and get that out in surgery on Saturday. The nurse also said that Matt was coherent and had been writting on a note pad asking for Candice, he was really worried about her so she decided to go back to the hospital.
This morning I talked to her, and I am just going to copy and paste our conversation:
Candice says: He is doing better, he was all hyped up last night and didn't want me to leave
Candice says: I came to my moms and slept for a bit, going back up there soon
Candice says: He was writting a lot!
Summer says: what was he saying?!
Summer says: did he tell you who did it?
Candice says: well he said when they came in, they put a pillowcase over his head... and pistol whipped him...told him today was his day to die
Candice says: they took his phone so he couldn't call for help
Candice says: luckily our neighbor was downstairs and Matt yelled for him and he came otherwise he would have bled to death
Summer says: jesus
Summer says: that's so scary
Summer says: so when did they actually shoot him?
Candice says: they tried to when they first came in, I'm still not clear on that but it sounded like they did it right when they came in the door
Summer says: and then they put the pillow case on his head?
Candice says: yeah, I think so he was writting all sloppy and fast and crazy...
Fuckin crazy. My mom was saying this morning that she bet they didn't go there with the intent to kill him, they probably just went over there to rob him and then something went wrong and they ended up shooting him. Heh.. but apparently they were there to kill Matt yesterday. I'm still having a really really hard time with that. It's terrifying and sickening. The news said they found 3 bags of weed at the scene, so they dropped all the drugs they went there to kill Matt for. I cannot believe someone would murder another human for fuckin weed. It's truly horrifying.
I guess this entry is long enough now. I feel sick again, blah.