Consider your own reflection
5 days 'til the end of the school year! Wooooooo! But that also means 5 days until I leave for Quebec, and I don't know how I feel about that yet. I'm scared! And worried! And jealous of all the fun I'll be missing back home while I'm gone! I just have to remind myself that I felt this way last year before I left for Moncton, and I ended up having an amazing time. Plus, this is only for 3 weeks, not 5, and I've always wanted to go to Quebec so I should shut my mouth and just be happy!
I totally just did the duck-and-cover-don't-answer-the-door manouevre to some Jehovah's Witnesses. There was a really frail old lady so I feel kind of bad, but I just don't want to deal with it! I opened the door once and talked to them for 2 minutes, and after that they wouldn't leave me alone. I'm weak, I can't say no or be mean! I'm sure they knew I was home - the TV is blaring What Not to Wear and I'm sitting right in the window, but... oh well.
Work is scary busy right now. I thought I'd be able to relax once I got my report cards done, but it seems like there's always something else to take care of. We had an all-day field trip yesterday, and there's Sports Day and an ill-conceived Poetry Night by my class on monday, suggested by the music teacher. I have a feeling it's going to be awful, but I gotta do what I gotta do.
In a way, it's good I'm so busy because it keeps me from thinking of Sylvia. Though it's also bad because I don't think I'm dealing with it effectively. Do you think it's normal to have random jags of crying for no reason? I shouldn't say no reason, it's little things that trigger me, like a random memory popping into my head or hearing a song by my brother's band. I don't know how to grieve, I've never done this before. I guess there's no right or wrong way, but I wish there were an easier one.
Anyway. I did a small friends cut, mostly removing inactive journals. If you feel like I made a mistake and would like to be re-added, just let me know. Otherwise, I'm pretty sure there won't be any weeping or gnashing of teeth, as I am very boring and I don't have much of a connection with many people on here. I hope there are no hard feelings!
And to my girls that are going through some rough times right now, I know you'll get through it. You're both tough, not to mention deserving of so much better. It's out there! I know it seems impossible sometimes, but nothing in life is ever easy. Except for shutting the curtains and pretending you're not home when the JW's come a-knocking. :P
I totally just did the duck-and-cover-don't-answer-the-door manouevre to some Jehovah's Witnesses. There was a really frail old lady so I feel kind of bad, but I just don't want to deal with it! I opened the door once and talked to them for 2 minutes, and after that they wouldn't leave me alone. I'm weak, I can't say no or be mean! I'm sure they knew I was home - the TV is blaring What Not to Wear and I'm sitting right in the window, but... oh well.
Work is scary busy right now. I thought I'd be able to relax once I got my report cards done, but it seems like there's always something else to take care of. We had an all-day field trip yesterday, and there's Sports Day and an ill-conceived Poetry Night by my class on monday, suggested by the music teacher. I have a feeling it's going to be awful, but I gotta do what I gotta do.
In a way, it's good I'm so busy because it keeps me from thinking of Sylvia. Though it's also bad because I don't think I'm dealing with it effectively. Do you think it's normal to have random jags of crying for no reason? I shouldn't say no reason, it's little things that trigger me, like a random memory popping into my head or hearing a song by my brother's band. I don't know how to grieve, I've never done this before. I guess there's no right or wrong way, but I wish there were an easier one.
Anyway. I did a small friends cut, mostly removing inactive journals. If you feel like I made a mistake and would like to be re-added, just let me know. Otherwise, I'm pretty sure there won't be any weeping or gnashing of teeth, as I am very boring and I don't have much of a connection with many people on here. I hope there are no hard feelings!
And to my girls that are going through some rough times right now, I know you'll get through it. You're both tough, not to mention deserving of so much better. It's out there! I know it seems impossible sometimes, but nothing in life is ever easy. Except for shutting the curtains and pretending you're not home when the JW's come a-knocking. :P