ang sad
i'm starting work next week. it's a long story but i wasn't planning to go back to work until july cos it's an hour away and i don't have any family to leave the baby with but then a job came up literally at my door step so i quit my job and took this new one on. but because i was in the mindset that we still had so much time, i'm totally freaking out about going back next week.
PLEASE tell me it gets easier :)
i found out two weeks ago about the job and i've been interviewing childminders like nobody's business. so she's going to a childminder from 9-5 everyday and we took her there today for a trial (3 hours). now, the baby is very sociable, when we're around. but the new people, new environment and no mommy and daddy proved too much and she was upset for most of time she was there. :(
when i picked her up, i could hear her crying from the street. and when i went in, the childminder said that i "had her ruined" (which i pressume to mean spoiled with my company)
so, i'm upset that the baby was upset. I was upset anyway cos this is the first time i've left her with someone other than family. i'm also worried that the childminder will think she's too much trouble and cancel on me though she assures me she won't. like obviously she was a stranger and i would have been upset (again) if the baby just took to her.
i don't know what to do. we're going back there friday, monday, tuesday and wednesday and hopefully, she will be more settled when i start work on thursday. i'm just so worried.
and to top it all off, i'm still breastfeeding and totally my fault, but the baby rarely takes a bottle. so on top of everything, we're starting her on a bottle or sippy cup too. STRESS!
does anyone have any tips? suggestions? kind words? hehe
thanks!
PLEASE tell me it gets easier :)
i found out two weeks ago about the job and i've been interviewing childminders like nobody's business. so she's going to a childminder from 9-5 everyday and we took her there today for a trial (3 hours). now, the baby is very sociable, when we're around. but the new people, new environment and no mommy and daddy proved too much and she was upset for most of time she was there. :(
when i picked her up, i could hear her crying from the street. and when i went in, the childminder said that i "had her ruined" (which i pressume to mean spoiled with my company)
so, i'm upset that the baby was upset. I was upset anyway cos this is the first time i've left her with someone other than family. i'm also worried that the childminder will think she's too much trouble and cancel on me though she assures me she won't. like obviously she was a stranger and i would have been upset (again) if the baby just took to her.
i don't know what to do. we're going back there friday, monday, tuesday and wednesday and hopefully, she will be more settled when i start work on thursday. i'm just so worried.
and to top it all off, i'm still breastfeeding and totally my fault, but the baby rarely takes a bottle. so on top of everything, we're starting her on a bottle or sippy cup too. STRESS!
does anyone have any tips? suggestions? kind words? hehe
thanks!