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I am tired, irritated and sad. I don’t feel like doing my work, I don’t feel like doing anything. I want to sleep. I want to cry. I hate waking up at 7 in the morning. It makes me too cranky. Anyways, I should be reading/getting ready for my in-class essay tomorrow, but whatever. I’ll do it later.
I feel like everything is going by too quickly. I don’t want it to be my birthday Saturday. Not at all. Around this time a year ago I just found out my aunt had cancer. I’d just really rather not have a birthday this year. I keep thinking about her, and seeing her in the hospital and seeing her go through all the pain. And sometimes I wish that I could just go back to visiting her in the hospital. And then I feel selfish for wishing something like that because she went through so much. But I just can’t believe it’s been almost a year since I found out. At first they said she had a couple years. She only made it to the end of March and I think she was holding on for a while. I don’t want to say it’s not fair, I really don’t…but it’s not. And all of the things with her grandkids and kids..I just feel bad. It’s not even about me.
I seem so depressing. I’m really not.
I saw Hilary Duff filming a movie. And I’m going back to watch Saturday on my birthday …. YES.