uncertainties...
It’s 2.00 in the morning and I have a midterm in 6 hours… why am I not asleep??
Wish I knew…
I love Toronto but I always feel really discontent here. I had such an awesome time at home even though I was in a lot of pain and it wasn’t just because of my birthday. I just have a more general sense of happiness when I’m in Ottawa. I’m not really sure why…
I’m going to school for something that I enjoy and I know I would be successful in.
I’m not a regular poor student(but I don’t have a money tree either).
I have freedom.
I have space.
I have awesome roommates.(which many of you need to meet)
I have friends.
So what is it? Is it that I just miss the comforts of home?? But I like cooking for myself, I don’t mind doing dishes and I’m one small person I don’t make a lot of dishes. I try to keep things clean here just as much as at home.
So I’ve spent many showers and walks home thinking this over…
In general, the past year I’ve been questioning a lot that I’ve been doing except for when I was in Ottawa during the summer. I’ve always gone with my intuition and it’s never led me astray.
Ever since J died I’ve been finding it extremely hard to concentrate, focus, and just enjoy what I’m doing here in Toronto. I’ve been finding that I have regained the attitude of uncaring and lack of respect for teachers and school that I had in highschool. I have completely lost all the excitement I used to have for this program, for my career in special events…
On another note, I had a dream this morning. JJ was in it. I think he was trying to tell me something important but I was too distracted by his hott friends who were hitting on me to notice anything he was saying. Soooo like me…
And then the morning after we went out for my birthday I had a dream/nightmare. (I say nightmare because spiders creep me the shit out!) I was being attacked by a big fat hairy spider in my kitchen that I could just not get away from. Every time I moved in a different direction to run away I got caught in a spider web. I kept screaming for help and no one would come, not even my mommy! I woke up in marks bed screaming and I didn’t even wake anybody up!
Well one thing is for sure… my trip to Cuba with the family is definitely needed. I am so excited for 3 days in Montreal and then a week in Cuba!!
Wish I knew…
I love Toronto but I always feel really discontent here. I had such an awesome time at home even though I was in a lot of pain and it wasn’t just because of my birthday. I just have a more general sense of happiness when I’m in Ottawa. I’m not really sure why…
I’m going to school for something that I enjoy and I know I would be successful in.
I’m not a regular poor student(but I don’t have a money tree either).
I have freedom.
I have space.
I have awesome roommates.(which many of you need to meet)
I have friends.
So what is it? Is it that I just miss the comforts of home?? But I like cooking for myself, I don’t mind doing dishes and I’m one small person I don’t make a lot of dishes. I try to keep things clean here just as much as at home.
So I’ve spent many showers and walks home thinking this over…
In general, the past year I’ve been questioning a lot that I’ve been doing except for when I was in Ottawa during the summer. I’ve always gone with my intuition and it’s never led me astray.
Ever since J died I’ve been finding it extremely hard to concentrate, focus, and just enjoy what I’m doing here in Toronto. I’ve been finding that I have regained the attitude of uncaring and lack of respect for teachers and school that I had in highschool. I have completely lost all the excitement I used to have for this program, for my career in special events…
On another note, I had a dream this morning. JJ was in it. I think he was trying to tell me something important but I was too distracted by his hott friends who were hitting on me to notice anything he was saying. Soooo like me…
And then the morning after we went out for my birthday I had a dream/nightmare. (I say nightmare because spiders creep me the shit out!) I was being attacked by a big fat hairy spider in my kitchen that I could just not get away from. Every time I moved in a different direction to run away I got caught in a spider web. I kept screaming for help and no one would come, not even my mommy! I woke up in marks bed screaming and I didn’t even wake anybody up!
Well one thing is for sure… my trip to Cuba with the family is definitely needed. I am so excited for 3 days in Montreal and then a week in Cuba!!